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It is so weird....hes really gone and Im wondering what hes doing right now. This sux... I feel like im all alone but I know Im not! I had my Best friend and her BF keep me company last night...i love her soooo much! And Julie who is the best roomate and friend ever! She made me signs over my computer of this song "smile" that I love!!!!! Those are the types of things that will keep me happy....thanks again i love and appreciate you guys! Ughhhh I still can't belive he's gone.... I miss him already and i just wish i could know hes safe.....but Im sure he will be. Not seeing someone that you love for 3 months and the again for 5 months is soooo scary....i mean whats going to happen?? Am I doing the right thing...are WE doing the right thing?? Will this work...... or am i sooo sad cause i feel like its going to tear us apart and i dont want it...or not like this :( We talked a couple of days about "us" and said how we do love each enough to stay together forever but we cant make ne promise and just be there for each other...and if it doesnt work it was both our decisions and we will always stay close...and who know maybe we will end up together in the end! Im just scared for the future for me and him....and what my life will be like. I guess changes are scary for me..big ones anyways. We were also talking about how like once hes gone a for a real long time we should be able to have "fun" .... and im not sure how it makes me feel....do i have a BF or do I have someone Iam waiting for...I think we both aren't sure. All I know is that we love and care for each other...but we are young and should have fun if we cant w/ each other..nothing major we came to our terms and its agreed upon. Not saying that it is supposed to happen but if it does..................then yeah............. well still always be there! I just wish i was doing the right thing.....i just dont know sigh :/
Well Im up at 8:30 AM and i think i might go and take shower and stuff...make me feel better this feeling really sux...i hope it gets better. UGhhh I have s much work to do today college sux! so im going to get an early start, see you all later!
I miss you steve...Always here <3
Well Im up at 8:30 AM and i think i might go and take shower and stuff...make me feel better this feeling really sux...i hope it gets better. UGhhh I have s much work to do today college sux! so im going to get an early start, see you all later!
I miss you steve...Always here <3