Why is it that sometimes the hardes things to say, are the things that really matter??

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WOW, vacation is over... it wasn't to bad, I worked alot. Yet, i got to hang out w/ steve alot, and that always makes me happy, and OH YEAH i got my tattoo w/ sam and STEV, which was fun, my 2 favorite people with me! Which is also very cool! me and stevo went to the mountain place in keene, it was fun, sometimes its just good to sit and watch and not say ne thing, its just good to know that someones there, and someone that you love, and i love him so much. I just hope he feels that way too! Now, i know he loves me but to me i feel like, now that I love him, i know that before i was never really in love, because no one else makes me feel the way that he does, i could never stay mad at him, that is if we ever fight, which we never really have, yet theres something about him, that i just cant get enough of...and then, when i think like that, and wonder if he feels that strongly about me, or not. I wonder if he knows now if he really ever loved her, or loved her more then me....maybe im just being paraniod, but i dont know, i just feel like the song from avril...These things I'll never say, because sometimes the words are to hard to come out, and/or i think they wont matter, cause i tend to think of things that arent true, and i dont wanna fight about it, cause theres nothing to fight about. I guess i just want him to know, that hes nothing short of my everything, and sometimes I feel so nervous, I think I'm Trying to be so perfect Cause I know hes worth it he's worth it!! :)) He really is! Theres nothing I wouldnt do to make him happy, cause he's something i just cant explain...to me he is more than just my boyfriend, hes so much more then that...yet im not really sure how to say it, just like im not sure sometimes how to express, or talk to him about certain things, cause there are just thing's I'll never say.....but then i really think about the things we have done together all the special things, all the talks, the cuddling....and in the end all that really does matter is we are in love, and i love him!!
Ok enough, i got to go to class...christ, im getting all emotional here! haha ok byeeee

<3 Boisvert