Home!!!!!!!!!
It feels sooooooooooooooooooooo good to be home!!!!!!!!! I don't want to go back to Ball State. I could stay here and go to IU and be with all of my best friends in the universe or I could go back to Ball State where I'm pretty much flunking all my classes and I'd get to go back to all of the oh-so-wonderful people who make my life suck.
That's not fair. There are only a few people that do that. I love the rest of them. Krystalia. Kristine. Kristy. Ravyn. Kadie. Jess. Jess. Amanda (even though she's in Ft Wayne). David. Charlie. Joe. Dan.
I ran errands with my mom yesterday. It was fun. I love her so much. She is so good to me. I feel bad because I do all these things behind her back... Last night I was over at a friend's house with the group of people I hung out with in high school (at least most of them) and we made a campfire and just sat around it and drank. It was soooooooo much fun. I got home at 4am. I feel bad because I used to have to be in at midnight and I had to check in with my mom and tell her I was home, but I didn't last night... I just went straight to bed.
I saw Dustin yesterday. It was so good to see him. We just held each other for like 10 minutes. We talked for a while, told each other that we love each other and whatnot, and I told him he's a dick for what he did to me and he said he knows... Then I had to leave to go hang out with one of my friends and he had to go to work. He called me a couple of times when I was at my friend's house, and I went and picked him up because he was drunk and really pissed off or something... That was interesting. He just told me he loves me about every 10 seconds.
I miss him. I miss having someone. I know he wants to be back with me... And I know I shouldn't, but if I don't he'll stay with the girl he's with now and she is so bad for him. He's a senior in high school and he's working 7 days a week to help her pay rent. He's living with her. He doesn't go to school. He drinks all the time because she's a 21-year-old high school drop out with not even a GED who works at Pizza Hut and she buys him alcohol like every night. She does drugs all the time around him, and he says he hasn't tried any of them but I'm sure he has... I'm sure he's had sex with her too, which really grosses me out but oh well I guess. His mom always tells me I'm his only hope... She always brings me up around him to try to get him to leave her and try to get me to be with him again.
I smell fooooooooooood so I'm going to go eat! Haha...
That's not fair. There are only a few people that do that. I love the rest of them. Krystalia. Kristine. Kristy. Ravyn. Kadie. Jess. Jess. Amanda (even though she's in Ft Wayne). David. Charlie. Joe. Dan.
I ran errands with my mom yesterday. It was fun. I love her so much. She is so good to me. I feel bad because I do all these things behind her back... Last night I was over at a friend's house with the group of people I hung out with in high school (at least most of them) and we made a campfire and just sat around it and drank. It was soooooooo much fun. I got home at 4am. I feel bad because I used to have to be in at midnight and I had to check in with my mom and tell her I was home, but I didn't last night... I just went straight to bed.
I saw Dustin yesterday. It was so good to see him. We just held each other for like 10 minutes. We talked for a while, told each other that we love each other and whatnot, and I told him he's a dick for what he did to me and he said he knows... Then I had to leave to go hang out with one of my friends and he had to go to work. He called me a couple of times when I was at my friend's house, and I went and picked him up because he was drunk and really pissed off or something... That was interesting. He just told me he loves me about every 10 seconds.
I miss him. I miss having someone. I know he wants to be back with me... And I know I shouldn't, but if I don't he'll stay with the girl he's with now and she is so bad for him. He's a senior in high school and he's working 7 days a week to help her pay rent. He's living with her. He doesn't go to school. He drinks all the time because she's a 21-year-old high school drop out with not even a GED who works at Pizza Hut and she buys him alcohol like every night. She does drugs all the time around him, and he says he hasn't tried any of them but I'm sure he has... I'm sure he's had sex with her too, which really grosses me out but oh well I guess. His mom always tells me I'm his only hope... She always brings me up around him to try to get him to leave her and try to get me to be with him again.
I smell fooooooooooood so I'm going to go eat! Haha...