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i'm leaving for school in about 4 days.....and it just doesn't seem soon enough. sure, i feel bad leaving behind the friends i made at camp, but i'm really really looking forward to seeing everyone in tampa again cuz lets face it, a year in a dorm pretty much turns roommates into friends and your friends into your family. and i feel like my friends are the only family that i can count on, that includes the ones down here. my own is kinda failing me.....and by my own i mean my parents...my sisters don't really talk to me that much but they have their own lives so my parents have no one else to bother.. :( i'm still being ragged on for wanting to become a veterinarian which i don't get because before i went to school i could be anything i wanted....i guess as long as it was in the range of what they wanted they were happy. my mom always talks about me changing my mind because i was "suppossed" to become a CSI even though i've told her billions of times that was a false dream, not mine, and it was to make her happy because she liked the idea alot. i'm going to pretend that she's over that though and not let it bother me anymore......the thing that is bothering me is when she steps in while i look for job listings in tampa.
she wants me to work on campus again.....which, by the way, sucks at UT. there's too many students, not enought hours to work, and not enough pay so this year i want to work OFF campus where there are more hours available, slightly less irritating people to work for, and way better pay. (the places that i've been talking to start at $12/hr instead of a measly 7) soo i'm pretty much ok with searching on my own and surprisingly i found 3 jobs, which are exactly what i want to do, run by the sweetest people i've talked to over the phone, pay well, and would actually HELP me with becoming a vet. .......APPARENTLY there's a problem with that according to my parents, granted they didn't listen to me at all. they gave me this whole lecture about how i may be too young to understand, but sometimes we need to take mediocre jobs that have nothing to do with our future and won't get us anywhere....hold the fucking phone...first of all i'm definatly NOT too young...i'm going to be 20 years old, i know how the world works, i'm not a retard. second why why WHY would i take a mediocre-not-getting-me-anywhere job when i've already found 3 that are available and can help my future?! where is the logic in this argument!? my mom thinks i should go work at a law office, answer phones, be a file clerk...yea that's REALLLY gonna look awesome on my vet school application as opposed to either 1. and internship for Big Cat Rescue where i take care of medically and foster-parenty(?) baby to young adult tigers, lions, servals, and other exotic animals or 2. a position as a veterinary assistant....where i pretty much do everything a vet does. exactly who's argument looks and makes more sense? OMG the college kid-who=knows-nothings! holy crap! a miracle! and to top it off she went on UT's website and looked up student employment and was like "here, you need to take one of these jobs" ....why? i already had one and it sucked....which would be why i QUIT.
another thing that really bothers me is how she cries poverty ALL THE TIME.......or just when she wants me to feel bad....she cries poverty and then, after take $5000, yep five THOUSAND dollars out of my savings to pay for school which was okay but here's waht bothers me, she then takes another $80 from MY checking account for herself....$80 of MY money that i have worked ALL SUMMER to save so i can have money AT SCHOOL and she took it!!!! she said "it's mine too my name is on the account" NO it is NOT yours too YOU didn't work ONE GODDAMNED day for it. and the only reason YOUR name was on the account was so i could get a credit card and not just a debit! so FUCK YOU PUT MY MONEY BACK!!! it's not fair and i don't understand it.....maybe i will do what ricki told me to and when we get back to school i'll open my OWN account and transfer ALL of MY money into it so she can't touch it. i seriously cannot wait until i have my own place in tampa where she can't bother me and i can finally just live out my life the way i want to without having to answer to anyone or have every little thing i do questioned or have all of the money i worked so hard for taken from mejust because she wanted some pocket change.