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went to my first day of actual school today. its been almost 6 months since ive been in school, almost 8 since ive been to Englewood. it was so weird walking down those halls. ive had so many memories there in the short time i went there. ehh.... but i gotta put those behind me. its just hard, cause everywhere i go, im reminded. and its like i cant get the fuck away from it. but why should i, because im supposed to? oh well, sometimes you gotta do things you dont wanna. i met my football coach today too. i think i have a really good chance to start this year if i am given the oppurtunity. i have a lot of disadvantages though since i started late for one, and im new to the coach, and the position i want is taken by somebody that played that position last year and is probably a coach's pet. im gonna try my hardest though. Jon and i are going to MD to record in 2 weeks. that should be alright. what the fuck, what am i supposed to think about all of this. all i can say is i miss it, and it looks like im going to the rest of my life.... it sucks, but at the same time, im glad it happened. maybe in the future. nothing is real until its permanent.