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People are finally starting to listen to me, although the one person it really matters if they believe me or not still doesnt. I wish she would listen to me. There is nothing I can do to get her to believe me that even to THIS DAY, I have yet to have sex with another girl. It's like she wants to believe I cheated on her so it's easier for her to move on. Kind of like she used cheating as a way out, since we were never able to get out before. Not that I ever wanted to. I loved that girl with all my heart and soul, more then the sun, stars, and the moon. and I still do, even more than ever since this is the 2nd week I have lived without her by my side, without her to hold, kiss, tell her how beautiful she is, or give me those little kisses where she cant stop smiling. I miss her so much. It kills me that all of this shit that's happened between us, started from a rumor that I cheated on her, AND IT WASNT EVEN TRUE. I know it's probably time that I move on from this, but I just can't. I love her so much and it kills me because I know that she HATES me and she wants me to burn in hell...... I wish she would just believe me. I have no reason to lie anymore, I've lost her. I've lost what I consider it all. I hope with time just her and I get to sit down and talk about all of this, and the truth is told, and accepted. I think deep down, she knows that I would never cheat on her, hopefully she will listen to me soon. I miss her sooo much. I would do anything for her, and I think that is being shown right now, being as it may that I was put through all of this torture and I still love her and look at her as the perfect girl I spent 6 months of my life with, the girl I was in love with, the girl who was all about me and I was all about her, the girl who was the other half of jacksonville's perfect couple. I miss her. I hope she misses me too........