Ugh.
Well, I've been posting a lot in my oh-so-wonderful myspace blog [nobody reads it anyways, who gives a shit?] but I need a little more freedom, so I'll just flame here. My creative outlet in writing is the only thing keeping me sane lately... and I could write a soap opera with everything I've seen in the past few months.
Am I your only weakness,
Or just another number?
I am not modest. I am not nice. I am not anything you'll see in a good person. I am neurotic. I am obnoxious. I am a retard. Why do you like me?
This may seem odd to whoever, but look at my icon and layout and then think again. You chose to come here, and I'm a nutcase.
But... I am going to sort out my relationships by writing everything down.
Lindsey- Used to be good friends, but grew apart.... at one time I loved her, cheesy as that may sound, but the rest of this isn't any better.
Ian-
Assorted friends of Lindsey - I really don't like them, and they don't like me. Nuff said.
Taylor- A new friend, nevertheless a great one. Love her.
Clark- Taylor's boyfriend. We get along great-- too great. He also likes to stare at my boobs.
Rachel- A good friend, since fifth grade. We've been through shit, but we still stick together.
Christian- Likes me, but then he doesn't, but then he does? He confounds me so much and it's not really worth whatever umpteen hours I've wasted being confused and overanalyzing every single detail. I'm good friends with him either way.
Momo- Christian and Rachel's best friend. A friend, I guess, but sometimes I get jealous of her and Christian. I really hate being the jealous type.
Margarita- Extremely shy, and -- I bet -- Christian's soon-to-be girlfriend. At one time I was furious with her... but I dunno. I accept her.
Okay, now I'm calm. Maybe this is all I needed.
Am I your only weakness,
Or just another number?
I am not modest. I am not nice. I am not anything you'll see in a good person. I am neurotic. I am obnoxious. I am a retard. Why do you like me?
This may seem odd to whoever, but look at my icon and layout and then think again. You chose to come here, and I'm a nutcase.
But... I am going to sort out my relationships by writing everything down.
Lindsey- Used to be good friends, but grew apart.... at one time I loved her, cheesy as that may sound, but the rest of this isn't any better.
Ian-
Assorted friends of Lindsey - I really don't like them, and they don't like me. Nuff said.
Taylor- A new friend, nevertheless a great one. Love her.
Clark- Taylor's boyfriend. We get along great-- too great. He also likes to stare at my boobs.
Rachel- A good friend, since fifth grade. We've been through shit, but we still stick together.
Christian- Likes me, but then he doesn't, but then he does? He confounds me so much and it's not really worth whatever umpteen hours I've wasted being confused and overanalyzing every single detail. I'm good friends with him either way.
Momo- Christian and Rachel's best friend. A friend, I guess, but sometimes I get jealous of her and Christian. I really hate being the jealous type.
Margarita- Extremely shy, and -- I bet -- Christian's soon-to-be girlfriend. At one time I was furious with her... but I dunno. I accept her.
Okay, now I'm calm. Maybe this is all I needed.