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i'm not sure if anyone reads this anymore, but i'm sure word will spread quickly enough and it will be viewed by all eventually.
a lot of garbage has gone down. if you have no idea what i'm talking about, then you probably have no business reading this... it won't make much sense anyway, so to save time, don't bother. haha. ^-^
i was betrayed. i don't exactly know how anyone else would react from such a thing, but i did it strangely. ...really, for me, it was odd. at one point in time, given the same situation, the old lissa would have flipped out and made everyone lives miserable. if anything, i pulled back. there were the odd times where i would snap out of it and throw someone a smile, wave or "hello", but other than that, head down or tunnel vision. there were the persistent ones that would message me on msn, too. those conversations never turned out well. i apologize.
before you jump on the comment link, i want you to read the rest of my entry with an open mind. i plan on answering all of your questions whole-heartedly, and with that comes honesty, so don't fret...
i want this crap to stop. no, i'm not over what happend. i'm not sure when that will be, but the silence isn't making any of this better. i've shared my feelings on the issue with some of you, and that's all i'm going to do. i figure the gossip will travel anyway, so there's no need for me to explain myself to everybody. i feel no need for justification anyhow. i want people to be honest with me. that's all i ever wanted... if you don't want anything to do with me, so be it, but truthfully, i miss so many of you.
this is partially what's been weighing on my heart so hard. i feel uncomfortable, when i used to be at ease. if people just want to move on without me, that's fine too- i guess what i'm asking for is closure in that case. ...i'm not sure what i'm typing anymore.
please know that my views on things have not changed, and for many of you that could be a problem. that's okay. i want you all to know that it's okay to disagree with me, but arguing will get us absolutely nowhere. however, if it is brought up and thrown in my face, expect retaliation. oh, and for the record, i hate a total of 2 people that were on "the list." ...and trust me when i say you'll know if you're one of them. i wouldn't worry about it, though. not that you would. hahaha...
that's all for now. feel free to share your thoughts- xlissyx@hotmail.com
love,
lissa "drugs are bad" mcgill
thought of the day: man, i'm totally ripping off burch. hehehe... awesome.
a lot of garbage has gone down. if you have no idea what i'm talking about, then you probably have no business reading this... it won't make much sense anyway, so to save time, don't bother. haha. ^-^
i was betrayed. i don't exactly know how anyone else would react from such a thing, but i did it strangely. ...really, for me, it was odd. at one point in time, given the same situation, the old lissa would have flipped out and made everyone lives miserable. if anything, i pulled back. there were the odd times where i would snap out of it and throw someone a smile, wave or "hello", but other than that, head down or tunnel vision. there were the persistent ones that would message me on msn, too. those conversations never turned out well. i apologize.
before you jump on the comment link, i want you to read the rest of my entry with an open mind. i plan on answering all of your questions whole-heartedly, and with that comes honesty, so don't fret...
i want this crap to stop. no, i'm not over what happend. i'm not sure when that will be, but the silence isn't making any of this better. i've shared my feelings on the issue with some of you, and that's all i'm going to do. i figure the gossip will travel anyway, so there's no need for me to explain myself to everybody. i feel no need for justification anyhow. i want people to be honest with me. that's all i ever wanted... if you don't want anything to do with me, so be it, but truthfully, i miss so many of you.
this is partially what's been weighing on my heart so hard. i feel uncomfortable, when i used to be at ease. if people just want to move on without me, that's fine too- i guess what i'm asking for is closure in that case. ...i'm not sure what i'm typing anymore.
please know that my views on things have not changed, and for many of you that could be a problem. that's okay. i want you all to know that it's okay to disagree with me, but arguing will get us absolutely nowhere. however, if it is brought up and thrown in my face, expect retaliation. oh, and for the record, i hate a total of 2 people that were on "the list." ...and trust me when i say you'll know if you're one of them. i wouldn't worry about it, though. not that you would. hahaha...
that's all for now. feel free to share your thoughts- xlissyx@hotmail.com
love,
lissa "drugs are bad" mcgill
thought of the day: man, i'm totally ripping off burch. hehehe... awesome.