I need you ~Chapter 7~
Title: I need you
Author;
xruki_x
Pairing: Akame
Rating: PG / PG-13
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin left to LA and Kame started to change because Jin won't contact him. he want's to forget Jin to avoid the Pain but everywhere Jin's name get's mentioned if not his name, his face would or his vocie... Is he able to walk forward without Jin?
2nd Summary; Jin will return to Japan,KAT-TUN. But still Kame can't figure out why Jin avoided him all the time.
A/N: The second summary will start soon but it isn't ongoing yet.
Kame felt on his knees and starred at the ground. It hurts. It hurt too much. He wanted to cry. Tears swelled up in his eyes as he starred. Slowly one tear dripped down his face. He looked up, turned around and faced Ueda.
“I’m sorry” he said
Ueda shook his head and walked to the younger boy who was kneeling on the ground.
“There is nothing to apologize about” he said.
Tears dripped down his face one for one.
“I miss him, Ueda. Why can’t I stop loving him? Even after everything he did..”
“I don’t know… Kame… It will be alright.”
“It won’t! he hates me!” the younger one cried. “He doesn’t like me. He hates me…Ueda, Jin hates me!!!”
Slowly Kame stood up, walked to the couch and sat on it. He held a pillow and hugged it close to himself.
“Kame.. I…”
“I’m sorry” he said again.
“Kame…” Ueda said and walked to Kame. “It’s okay… You don’t need to apologize for anything…”
Kame cried harder and held the pillow even closer if possible. Kame shook it head.
“It’s useless.. he doesn’t notice me... He likes girl, Ueda! He likes GIRLS!! With BOOBS!! and BLOND” Kame cried even harder.
Ueda sat down next to Kame and hugged him.
“He doesn’t. believe me.. That idiot doesn’t only love girls with blond hair and big boobs”
Kame soften his grip on the pillow and starred at Ueda in confusion though the tears continued streaming down his face.
“Liar” He said softly “you’re lying”
“I’m not” Ueda responded.
“Stop lying to me, it’s not true. He doesn’t like me. He doesn’t want to know me. He hates me..”
“He doesn’t hate you Kame!!! I’m telling you HE DOESN’T HATE YOU! AND HE NEVER WILL! BECAUSE HE CAN’T!!”
“Stop it!” Kame yelled “stop it…” his voice soften. “Why does everyone lie to me? It hurts. Why does everyone keep asking me things that I don’t want to talk about?! WHY?? TELL ME! WHY?!?!”
“Kame! Wake Up!! They do that because they CARE about YOU!!!” Ueda yelled.
“Care? Yeah, right. By hurting me?” Kame laughed painfully between his tears. “Stop hurting me… I’m weak. I’m not as strong as I look like…” he smiled.
“Kame…Don’t be like this. Why don’t you listen?” Ueda said and looked into’s Kame’s eyes. “Why don’t you trust me?” he asked.
“Because…I…”
Kame silenced for a while then burst in tears again. He warped his arms around Ueda’s neck and cried.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m so-”
“It’s okay! Don’t apologize!”
“But I…I’m sorry..”
“Kame.. It’s okay” he said as he held the younger boy.
“I’m sorry…Ueda… I’m sorry… I’m sorry for being such a bother to you…” the younger boy sniffed.
“It’s okay...Clam down. Everything will be fine” Ueda said as he stroked over the younger boy’s back. “It will be fine…”
Kame nodded and hugged Ueda tighter. “Thank you...”
They stayed like that for a while until Kame drifted off to sleep. His eyes were red and puffy from all the crying.
Ueda stood up and walked to the bedroom to get a blanket to cover Kame. When he covered Kame he smiled. He looked at the sleeping boy as a parent who would stay with their child when they would be sad. Kame looked really peaceful as he slept. Slowly the sides of his lips curled into a light smile.
“Kame, it will be okay soon. I promise” He whispered and left the younger boy alone in the room.
*~*~*~*
A few days passed and Kame finally got to see Ayako again.
Kame stood in front of the post office as Ayako came running to him.
“Sorry, that I was late” she said within breaths.
Kame smiled. “It’s okay, let’s go” he said.
Ayako nodded and together they went to buy clothes.
“Hey, what do you think of this one?” Ayako asked and held a T-shirt with a skirt infront of Kame.
“Hmm, well, Try it on”
“But…Time...”
“It’s okay. Just try it on, if you like it.”
Ayako nodded and walked towards the dressing room. A few minutes later she came back again and shook her head.
“It isn’t that nice as I thought” she said and hung the clothes back. “Let’s go back”
“Are you sure?” Kame asked, raising an eyebrow. Ayako wanted to shop with him and now she wanted to go back? Was something wrong?
Ayako nodded. “Yes I’m sure, besides I still need to talk with you remember?”
Oh, right. She needed to talk to him. That was the whole point of going out today.
“Ah, right. Okay, let’s go then”
*~*~*
On their walk back they decided to stop by a park which was nearby.
Ayako sat down on a wooden couch and Kame did the same. They watched some children play in the sand and on the see-saw.
Kame looked at Ayako. Why was she saying anything? Should he say something? Kame was about to say something until Ayako stood up and ran to a child who felt down. The child was crying for his mother but there wasn’t any other ‘adult’ nearby except them.
“Don’t cry, it’ll be okay” Ayako told the child.
Kame, It’ll be okay soon
Kame bit his lip. Was it really going to be okay soon? Kame watched Ayako comforting the child and soon the child stopped crying.
“Arigatou, Onee-san” the child said and smiled.
“It’s okay” Ayako smiled back. “Be careful next time” The child nodded and ran away.
Ayako sighed and then look at Kame.
“Kazuya… Let’s get to the topic” she said in a serious tune.
Kame nodded and listened.
“I think we should stop seeing each other” she smiled sadly.
Kame was confused. What was going on here? Why would they have to stop seeing each other?
“I...Well, I know I’m always the one who asked you out and such” she stopped for a while took a breath and continued “But it’s better if we stop seeing each other” she said
“Why?”
“Because I have to for your sake” she said and looked at the ground to avoid Kame’s eyes.
“Why for my sake? Did something happened?” he asked. This was way to confusing if she wouldn’t give him a proper answer.
“Well, you can say something happened” she said and looked up.
“What happened?” Kame asked again. He needed answers. Why should they stop seeing each other? It wasn’t that they were going out or something.
“Kazuya, you love someone, right?” She smiled.
Kame stood there stunned by the question. Why? Why? Why is she asked him that? Kame took a deep breath and nodded.
“So, I was right” she said softly.
“Ayako? What’s going on? What’s wrong?”
Ayako shook her head and looked up to the sky.
“Nothing…”
“Why do you want to stop seeing me? And why did you ask me if I like someone?”
Again Ayako shook her head “It isn’t important”
“Tell me” he said. This sounded familiar. It was like that. Ayako was him and that he played Ueda. Their conversation was like this also…
“I’m falling for you, Kazuya” she said softly and looked at him with tears.
For this once he didn’t know what to say. He knew how much it hurt to know that the person you loved didn’t love you back. But.. his plan was to forget Jin and to go out with Ayako. For some reason he couldn’t say ‘ the one I love is you’
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t had told you”
Kame looked at Ayako who was about to cry.
“Don’t be, I’m sorry...” he said and took a step closer to Ayako.
“It’s okay! Don’t come near me” she said with a trembling voice.
“Ayako…I…”
Ayako wiped her eyes, looked at him and smiled.
“It’s okay” she said. “You like someone, so please, don’t give up”
Kame froze. What was she saying? That he shouldn’t give up? What about her? For this once he wanted to whack her for not caring about her own feelings.
“He hates me” he said.
Ayako starred at him in confusion.
“What?” she asked
“He hates me, he won’t love me” Kame repeated.
“He?”
Kame nodded in responds.
“Oh, I see…but… why does he hate you?”
“I don’t know but he just do. I haven’t seen him for 6 months and he didn’t contact me even once” he said and looked at Ayako.
“I’m sorry…” she said “I didn’t know that you…”
“It’s okay” Kame said and smiled. “I’ll get to see him again…soon..” he muttered. “Ayako, did you know that we both have a lot in common?”
Ayako looked confused.
“I’m sorry that I can’t return your feelings” he said.
Ayako shook her head “It’s okay, you can’t force someone to love you, and I knew you loved someone. You always seemed sad when I talked about something related to Love” she said.
“Ayako, please, please lets continue going out together. I mean as friends. As we always have been. I want to stay friends with
you”
Kame walked closer to her and took her in embrace. “Cry, you can cry, your allowed to” he said whispered.
Ayako warped her hands around Kame’s waist and Kame held stroked over Ayako’s back.
“I love you, I’m so sorry” she said with her face buried against Kame’s chest. Kame nodded. “I know, I’m sorry that I can’t return your feelings...Only if I met you earlier. Only if that had happened, then I would love you” he said. Also tears wanted to flow over his face. But he had to keep strong for now. He took a deep breath and continued stroking her back.
They stayed like that for a long time. Ayako stopped crying and looked at Kame with her puffy eyes. “Kazuya, you know what?”
“No…?”
“Don’t give up! MAKE him love YOU” she said.
Kame got shocked
Ayako nodded. And then a tears felt down on her face. “Okay” she said.
. “What?”
“You said you would meet him soon again, when that happens. Make him love you”
“What are you saying?” he asked
“You know what I’m saying, He will love you, he will. I know he will” she said full confidence.
“But I…”
“No but’s! Make him love you” she repeated.
“Impossible..”
“Have you confessed to him yet?”
Kame shook his head.
“Do it”
“Ayako, what are you saying?!”
Ayako smiled but said nothing then she hugged him.
Kame smiled and hugged her back. “Okay, I’ll try to. If I fail then, I’ll go to you okay?”
“Baka” she said and smiled
against his chest.
At the entrance of the park there was someone watching them hugging. Soon he walked away again.
*~*~*~*
I'm going to rant a bit now about LJ = =!
LJ didn't let me post this Chapterrrrr >O<;; It kept getting cut off.. not to mention my mouse sucks, it;s broken ;O; i didn;t let me copy the chapter out word *sigh* i really get fustrated about that! *pulls out hair*
Author;
xruki_x
Pairing: Akame
Rating: PG / PG-13
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin left to LA and Kame started to change because Jin won't contact him. he want's to forget Jin to avoid the Pain but everywhere Jin's name get's mentioned if not his name, his face would or his vocie... Is he able to walk forward without Jin?
2nd Summary; Jin will return to Japan,KAT-TUN. But still Kame can't figure out why Jin avoided him all the time.
A/N: The second summary will start soon but it isn't ongoing yet.
Kame felt on his knees and starred at the ground. It hurts. It hurt too much. He wanted to cry. Tears swelled up in his eyes as he starred. Slowly one tear dripped down his face. He looked up, turned around and faced Ueda.
“I’m sorry” he said
Ueda shook his head and walked to the younger boy who was kneeling on the ground.
“There is nothing to apologize about” he said.
Tears dripped down his face one for one.
“I miss him, Ueda. Why can’t I stop loving him? Even after everything he did..”
“I don’t know… Kame… It will be alright.”
“It won’t! he hates me!” the younger one cried. “He doesn’t like me. He hates me…Ueda, Jin hates me!!!”
Slowly Kame stood up, walked to the couch and sat on it. He held a pillow and hugged it close to himself.
“Kame.. I…”
“I’m sorry” he said again.
“Kame…” Ueda said and walked to Kame. “It’s okay… You don’t need to apologize for anything…”
Kame cried harder and held the pillow even closer if possible. Kame shook it head.
“It’s useless.. he doesn’t notice me... He likes girl, Ueda! He likes GIRLS!! With BOOBS!! and BLOND” Kame cried even harder.
Ueda sat down next to Kame and hugged him.
“He doesn’t. believe me.. That idiot doesn’t only love girls with blond hair and big boobs”
Kame soften his grip on the pillow and starred at Ueda in confusion though the tears continued streaming down his face.
“Liar” He said softly “you’re lying”
“I’m not” Ueda responded.
“Stop lying to me, it’s not true. He doesn’t like me. He doesn’t want to know me. He hates me..”
“He doesn’t hate you Kame!!! I’m telling you HE DOESN’T HATE YOU! AND HE NEVER WILL! BECAUSE HE CAN’T!!”
“Stop it!” Kame yelled “stop it…” his voice soften. “Why does everyone lie to me? It hurts. Why does everyone keep asking me things that I don’t want to talk about?! WHY?? TELL ME! WHY?!?!”
“Kame! Wake Up!! They do that because they CARE about YOU!!!” Ueda yelled.
“Care? Yeah, right. By hurting me?” Kame laughed painfully between his tears. “Stop hurting me… I’m weak. I’m not as strong as I look like…” he smiled.
“Kame…Don’t be like this. Why don’t you listen?” Ueda said and looked into’s Kame’s eyes. “Why don’t you trust me?” he asked.
“Because…I…”
Kame silenced for a while then burst in tears again. He warped his arms around Ueda’s neck and cried.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m so-”
“It’s okay! Don’t apologize!”
“But I…I’m sorry..”
“Kame.. It’s okay” he said as he held the younger boy.
“I’m sorry…Ueda… I’m sorry… I’m sorry for being such a bother to you…” the younger boy sniffed.
“It’s okay...Clam down. Everything will be fine” Ueda said as he stroked over the younger boy’s back. “It will be fine…”
Kame nodded and hugged Ueda tighter. “Thank you...”
They stayed like that for a while until Kame drifted off to sleep. His eyes were red and puffy from all the crying.
Ueda stood up and walked to the bedroom to get a blanket to cover Kame. When he covered Kame he smiled. He looked at the sleeping boy as a parent who would stay with their child when they would be sad. Kame looked really peaceful as he slept. Slowly the sides of his lips curled into a light smile.
“Kame, it will be okay soon. I promise” He whispered and left the younger boy alone in the room.
*~*~*~*
A few days passed and Kame finally got to see Ayako again.
Kame stood in front of the post office as Ayako came running to him.
“Sorry, that I was late” she said within breaths.
Kame smiled. “It’s okay, let’s go” he said.
Ayako nodded and together they went to buy clothes.
“Hey, what do you think of this one?” Ayako asked and held a T-shirt with a skirt infront of Kame.
“Hmm, well, Try it on”
“But…Time...”
“It’s okay. Just try it on, if you like it.”
Ayako nodded and walked towards the dressing room. A few minutes later she came back again and shook her head.
“It isn’t that nice as I thought” she said and hung the clothes back. “Let’s go back”
“Are you sure?” Kame asked, raising an eyebrow. Ayako wanted to shop with him and now she wanted to go back? Was something wrong?
Ayako nodded. “Yes I’m sure, besides I still need to talk with you remember?”
Oh, right. She needed to talk to him. That was the whole point of going out today.
“Ah, right. Okay, let’s go then”
*~*~*
On their walk back they decided to stop by a park which was nearby.
Ayako sat down on a wooden couch and Kame did the same. They watched some children play in the sand and on the see-saw.
Kame looked at Ayako. Why was she saying anything? Should he say something? Kame was about to say something until Ayako stood up and ran to a child who felt down. The child was crying for his mother but there wasn’t any other ‘adult’ nearby except them.
“Don’t cry, it’ll be okay” Ayako told the child.
Kame, It’ll be okay soon
Kame bit his lip. Was it really going to be okay soon? Kame watched Ayako comforting the child and soon the child stopped crying.
“Arigatou, Onee-san” the child said and smiled.
“It’s okay” Ayako smiled back. “Be careful next time” The child nodded and ran away.
Ayako sighed and then look at Kame.
“Kazuya… Let’s get to the topic” she said in a serious tune.
Kame nodded and listened.
“I think we should stop seeing each other” she smiled sadly.
Kame was confused. What was going on here? Why would they have to stop seeing each other?
“I...Well, I know I’m always the one who asked you out and such” she stopped for a while took a breath and continued “But it’s better if we stop seeing each other” she said
“Why?”
“Because I have to for your sake” she said and looked at the ground to avoid Kame’s eyes.
“Why for my sake? Did something happened?” he asked. This was way to confusing if she wouldn’t give him a proper answer.
“Well, you can say something happened” she said and looked up.
“What happened?” Kame asked again. He needed answers. Why should they stop seeing each other? It wasn’t that they were going out or something.
“Kazuya, you love someone, right?” She smiled.
Kame stood there stunned by the question. Why? Why? Why is she asked him that? Kame took a deep breath and nodded.
“So, I was right” she said softly.
“Ayako? What’s going on? What’s wrong?”
Ayako shook her head and looked up to the sky.
“Nothing…”
“Why do you want to stop seeing me? And why did you ask me if I like someone?”
Again Ayako shook her head “It isn’t important”
“Tell me” he said. This sounded familiar. It was like that. Ayako was him and that he played Ueda. Their conversation was like this also…
“I’m falling for you, Kazuya” she said softly and looked at him with tears.
For this once he didn’t know what to say. He knew how much it hurt to know that the person you loved didn’t love you back. But.. his plan was to forget Jin and to go out with Ayako. For some reason he couldn’t say ‘ the one I love is you’
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t had told you”
Kame looked at Ayako who was about to cry.
“Don’t be, I’m sorry...” he said and took a step closer to Ayako.
“It’s okay! Don’t come near me” she said with a trembling voice.
“Ayako…I…”
Ayako wiped her eyes, looked at him and smiled.
“It’s okay” she said. “You like someone, so please, don’t give up”
Kame froze. What was she saying? That he shouldn’t give up? What about her? For this once he wanted to whack her for not caring about her own feelings.
“He hates me” he said.
Ayako starred at him in confusion.
“What?” she asked
“He hates me, he won’t love me” Kame repeated.
“He?”
Kame nodded in responds.
“Oh, I see…but… why does he hate you?”
“I don’t know but he just do. I haven’t seen him for 6 months and he didn’t contact me even once” he said and looked at Ayako.
“I’m sorry…” she said “I didn’t know that you…”
“It’s okay” Kame said and smiled. “I’ll get to see him again…soon..” he muttered. “Ayako, did you know that we both have a lot in common?”
Ayako looked confused.
“I’m sorry that I can’t return your feelings” he said.
Ayako shook her head “It’s okay, you can’t force someone to love you, and I knew you loved someone. You always seemed sad when I talked about something related to Love” she said.
“Ayako, please, please lets continue going out together. I mean as friends. As we always have been. I want to stay friends with
you”
Kame walked closer to her and took her in embrace. “Cry, you can cry, your allowed to” he said whispered.
Ayako warped her hands around Kame’s waist and Kame held stroked over Ayako’s back.
“I love you, I’m so sorry” she said with her face buried against Kame’s chest. Kame nodded. “I know, I’m sorry that I can’t return your feelings...Only if I met you earlier. Only if that had happened, then I would love you” he said. Also tears wanted to flow over his face. But he had to keep strong for now. He took a deep breath and continued stroking her back.
They stayed like that for a long time. Ayako stopped crying and looked at Kame with her puffy eyes. “Kazuya, you know what?”
“No…?”
“Don’t give up! MAKE him love YOU” she said.
Kame got shocked
Ayako nodded. And then a tears felt down on her face. “Okay” she said.
. “What?”
“You said you would meet him soon again, when that happens. Make him love you”
“What are you saying?” he asked
“You know what I’m saying, He will love you, he will. I know he will” she said full confidence.
“But I…”
“No but’s! Make him love you” she repeated.
“Impossible..”
“Have you confessed to him yet?”
Kame shook his head.
“Do it”
“Ayako, what are you saying?!”
Ayako smiled but said nothing then she hugged him.
Kame smiled and hugged her back. “Okay, I’ll try to. If I fail then, I’ll go to you okay?”
“Baka” she said and smiled
against his chest.
At the entrance of the park there was someone watching them hugging. Soon he walked away again.
*~*~*~*
I'm going to rant a bit now about LJ = =!
LJ didn't let me post this Chapterrrrr >O<;; It kept getting cut off.. not to mention my mouse sucks, it;s broken ;O; i didn;t let me copy the chapter out word *sigh* i really get fustrated about that! *pulls out hair*