Please don't shoot me, I'm trying the best I can

[xrudyxfacex]

My life has fallen apart once again, maybe for good, maybe not. I look for all the right answers high and low but, there are no were to be found. Now that I have lost the one that keeps me going I have nothing to live for. Its seems like when I was with my dearest I was a tree with all of its green beautiful leaves. Now those leaves have fallen to the ground, turning brown at the blink of an eye. Sitting infront of this computer moniter I wonder what will happen to me tomorrow, next week, next month, even next year. I have not all the answers so I must wait till the time is right when the godesses will let me know. Until then I will wait, wait forever for the one that completes me.

Another thing that has royaly fucked me, Shaniqua and I aren't going to homecomning because her parents think "Its a bad idea". So whatever, fuck it all.

I need you now my allies

Rudy _ _ _