Kind of, well no pretty much
So stressed this year, couldn't sleep! I'm hating the holidays right now for a number of reasons:
1. Pressure to see family you don't really like/care for/ wish to be around is on...we have 2 family events on the same day. One side or the other will be disappointed if we don't show up, and since we logically cannot be in two places at once, we are going to disappoint one side this year. And the side we have to visit is UBER religious. They have already started posting scary facebook gospel messages to each other...I'm very afraid of what's in store.
2. The never-ending need to get the "perfect gift" is so difficult, especially for those weird picky relatives that hate and/or have everything. For Phares' side, his aunt Debbie is a Jewish princess. She has everything she likes, and hates pretty much everything else out there. She doesn't hug, doesn't hardly eat, doesn't cook, and buys tons of expensive clothes and jewelry. Shopping for her daughter (whom is 6, and we are going to disappoint by not showing up) is even harder.
3. Constant nagging from everyone to get gifts out on time, decorate your place, and have holiday goodies to share. This one stems from his mom, she is so needy (mostly because Phares is her only son, and she lives in Massachusetts) so she calls everynight to "see how we're doing" but it's always right around dinner, or right before dinner when I'm trying to cook. It's hard to make everyone feel wanted and loved when you also just want to get your daily routine busted out.
4. I'm pregnant and cranky. This encompasses all things and how I wish we were not traveling on the holidays. We also go roped into taking my grandmother to and from the train station two days in a row. I hate being forced to do things, I know I'm a witch for complaining about transporting my grandmother, but this got sprung on me last night and it wasn't asked of me, it was basically decided for me, and was told to me.
5. My boss is an inconsiderate jerk off. She is an old hippie who was never a mother, so she asks too much of me. I'm thinking for asking for an extra day off during the week to have a little me time. With two part time jobs, I'm always at one job, or another, or resting; never get to those chores "I said I'd do last week"...It's maddening b/c she's only willing to pay me 15 hours a week for a very insultingly low pay rate for my job skill set. So my income has a glass ceiling, and yet she continues to pile more and more responsibility onto my plate to finish "while I'm already here" as I struggle to just clear the surface of what needs to be done in their office. Thinking of also not coming back to work at all after my baby boy arrives. The babysitter will be making more money than I am!
Amen to this year being over. To new beginnings and less forced obligations. My goal for the New Year is to just take one thing at a time, not get overwhelmed or stressed from other peoples' tone, and assert myself when needed.
Please hurry up, apocalypse or not, gimmie 2012 already!
1. Pressure to see family you don't really like/care for/ wish to be around is on...we have 2 family events on the same day. One side or the other will be disappointed if we don't show up, and since we logically cannot be in two places at once, we are going to disappoint one side this year. And the side we have to visit is UBER religious. They have already started posting scary facebook gospel messages to each other...I'm very afraid of what's in store.
2. The never-ending need to get the "perfect gift" is so difficult, especially for those weird picky relatives that hate and/or have everything. For Phares' side, his aunt Debbie is a Jewish princess. She has everything she likes, and hates pretty much everything else out there. She doesn't hug, doesn't hardly eat, doesn't cook, and buys tons of expensive clothes and jewelry. Shopping for her daughter (whom is 6, and we are going to disappoint by not showing up) is even harder.
3. Constant nagging from everyone to get gifts out on time, decorate your place, and have holiday goodies to share. This one stems from his mom, she is so needy (mostly because Phares is her only son, and she lives in Massachusetts) so she calls everynight to "see how we're doing" but it's always right around dinner, or right before dinner when I'm trying to cook. It's hard to make everyone feel wanted and loved when you also just want to get your daily routine busted out.
4. I'm pregnant and cranky. This encompasses all things and how I wish we were not traveling on the holidays. We also go roped into taking my grandmother to and from the train station two days in a row. I hate being forced to do things, I know I'm a witch for complaining about transporting my grandmother, but this got sprung on me last night and it wasn't asked of me, it was basically decided for me, and was told to me.
5. My boss is an inconsiderate jerk off. She is an old hippie who was never a mother, so she asks too much of me. I'm thinking for asking for an extra day off during the week to have a little me time. With two part time jobs, I'm always at one job, or another, or resting; never get to those chores "I said I'd do last week"...It's maddening b/c she's only willing to pay me 15 hours a week for a very insultingly low pay rate for my job skill set. So my income has a glass ceiling, and yet she continues to pile more and more responsibility onto my plate to finish "while I'm already here" as I struggle to just clear the surface of what needs to be done in their office. Thinking of also not coming back to work at all after my baby boy arrives. The babysitter will be making more money than I am!
Amen to this year being over. To new beginnings and less forced obligations. My goal for the New Year is to just take one thing at a time, not get overwhelmed or stressed from other peoples' tone, and assert myself when needed.
Please hurry up, apocalypse or not, gimmie 2012 already!