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Ok seriously, why is life so challenging for me when it comes to a relationship...i find a girl close that i really care about and now she lives an hour. Stuff isnt going to well at my house either, im arguing with my mom about 50 percent of the time...im just sick of it. I fucking bombing everything is skool...life just isnt how i expected it to be...all i want to do is get out of high school. I dont care what my grades are, just as long as there good enough to get me the fuck out. OK, one day my life will all make sense...it feels like im just getting older...its going to fast i dont want to get older...not because im going to start to have responsibility i never had, its just...i dont want to age...and get old and die like that. I wish that when im older i am happy. I want to live in a house...and be able to wake up, have breakfast with my doctor wife..and go to work...come back and give her a big hug and kiss. I cant keep slacking off forever. I have to start trying now...start growing up mentally. I just need a new place to live right now...with the people i can tolerate, and i think i will feel way better mentally. I can finally be in peace...that is until we get on eachothers nerves..ok well we will find out soon enough...