Staind - Waste
I can't stand Col. Dickson. Total jackass. Making life hell for most of the people at the base. We are working harder now that the jets are gone, cleaning shit. Are you kidding. Fuckin drunk moron. Thank god he's getting kicked out. 3 DUI's. Welldone.
Today will be a good day because I said so. Weekend was alright. Hung out with buncha people from the shop at the bar my Sgt is head bouncer at. Which is cool cause I get to drink for 1/2 the price and dont have to pay to get in. I got him so drunk he was hurting on Sunday ahaha. Some jets come back on Wensday, which I just realised was today. God I hope they don't break. The rest come back on Friday. I don't think im on weekend duty, so those can break all they want. :O
Tonight David, Jimmy "D", and I are going to outback steakhouse... IT BETTER TASTE GOOD TOO! New friends here don't understand me. They are getting laid and bragging about it. I find it funny when they find out they fucked the same girl. ahaha. BITCHES. They give me alot of shit for not trying to get a girl, but i'm leaving here in 4-5 months (i hope) im not dragging no ho along with me. I like the attnetion though ;o i cant deny that. When a group of girls are looking at you when your all dressed up just hanging out with friends... yep, cant feel like your not the shit :P happened at a baccalaureate's party at the bar on Saturday ^.^ if that story comes up 1 more time this week at work -.- god help me. David walks passed me while im working and whispers pussy. LOL. Gonna beat that nigglet with birtha. (our 12 inch screwdriver) and yes, we named it.
I'm supposed to sew on my next strip in about a month and a half. Cant wait, more monies!!!! I've saved about 13,000 now. Woulda had alot more if i stopped buying shit for my computer and my room. I still think i want a new truck. So i'll keep saving.
Sorta getting back into playing on my computer, this town doenst have much to do. Last 2 days after work ive just been playing. I think after dinner ill play some more :) Nerd power. Speaking of which, i think ill call some nerd friends at home after im done typing this shit, bitch, fuck cunt. etc etc. idk. I think ill be going back home in October/september for a month. HELLYES. Will be just in time for the opening of dove season in arizona along the river. Man seems like i havent been there forever, and now that i think of it. I didnt get to go last year cause i was in basic, BULLSHIT. Atleast that craps over with. LEROOOOOOYYYYYY JENNNNNNNNNKINNNNNNNNNNNS. ahaha love that movie.
Moms having her surgery soon. Forgot whats its called. Something to do with down there. She says its a simple operation -.- i hope so. She wont tell gary cause he'll get all worried. Such a little worry fuck. Shoulda seen him when he was little. All he would ask is "is it ok" mother fucker no its not ok, you're gonna die. lol. And the time when i told him santa was gonna bring him a huge dog that eats people when it gets hungry. LOL that was the best ;o shoulda seen his ass cry on christmas eve. ;) i got in alot of trouble for that one though.
Anyway, its about time to wrap this book up.
Your mother came up to me.
She wanted answers only she should know, only... she did know.
It wasn't easy to deal with the tears that rolled down her face.
I have no answers cause,
I didn't even know you.
But these words,
They can't replace,
The life you waste.
How could you paint this picture?
Was life as bad as it should seem?
Were there no more options for you?
I can't explain how I feel.
I've been there many times before.
I've tasted the cold stel of my life crashing down before me.
Did Daddy not love you?
Or did he love you just too much?
Did he control you?
Did he live through you at your cost?
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own?
WELL FUCK THEM,
AND FUCK HER,
AND FUCK HIM,
AND FUCK YOU FOR NOT HAVING THE STRENGTH IN YOUR HEART TO PULL THROUGH,
I'VE HAD DOUBTS, I'VE HAD FEARS,
I'VE FUCKED UP, I'VE HAD PAIN,
DOESN'T MEAN I SHOULD TAKE MY LIFE WITH MY OWN HANDS.
Today will be a good day because I said so. Weekend was alright. Hung out with buncha people from the shop at the bar my Sgt is head bouncer at. Which is cool cause I get to drink for 1/2 the price and dont have to pay to get in. I got him so drunk he was hurting on Sunday ahaha. Some jets come back on Wensday, which I just realised was today. God I hope they don't break. The rest come back on Friday. I don't think im on weekend duty, so those can break all they want. :O
Tonight David, Jimmy "D", and I are going to outback steakhouse... IT BETTER TASTE GOOD TOO! New friends here don't understand me. They are getting laid and bragging about it. I find it funny when they find out they fucked the same girl. ahaha. BITCHES. They give me alot of shit for not trying to get a girl, but i'm leaving here in 4-5 months (i hope) im not dragging no ho along with me. I like the attnetion though ;o i cant deny that. When a group of girls are looking at you when your all dressed up just hanging out with friends... yep, cant feel like your not the shit :P happened at a baccalaureate's party at the bar on Saturday ^.^ if that story comes up 1 more time this week at work -.- god help me. David walks passed me while im working and whispers pussy. LOL. Gonna beat that nigglet with birtha. (our 12 inch screwdriver) and yes, we named it.
I'm supposed to sew on my next strip in about a month and a half. Cant wait, more monies!!!! I've saved about 13,000 now. Woulda had alot more if i stopped buying shit for my computer and my room. I still think i want a new truck. So i'll keep saving.
Sorta getting back into playing on my computer, this town doenst have much to do. Last 2 days after work ive just been playing. I think after dinner ill play some more :) Nerd power. Speaking of which, i think ill call some nerd friends at home after im done typing this shit, bitch, fuck cunt. etc etc. idk. I think ill be going back home in October/september for a month. HELLYES. Will be just in time for the opening of dove season in arizona along the river. Man seems like i havent been there forever, and now that i think of it. I didnt get to go last year cause i was in basic, BULLSHIT. Atleast that craps over with. LEROOOOOOYYYYYY JENNNNNNNNNKINNNNNNNNNNNS. ahaha love that movie.
Moms having her surgery soon. Forgot whats its called. Something to do with down there. She says its a simple operation -.- i hope so. She wont tell gary cause he'll get all worried. Such a little worry fuck. Shoulda seen him when he was little. All he would ask is "is it ok" mother fucker no its not ok, you're gonna die. lol. And the time when i told him santa was gonna bring him a huge dog that eats people when it gets hungry. LOL that was the best ;o shoulda seen his ass cry on christmas eve. ;) i got in alot of trouble for that one though.
Anyway, its about time to wrap this book up.
Your mother came up to me.
She wanted answers only she should know, only... she did know.
It wasn't easy to deal with the tears that rolled down her face.
I have no answers cause,
I didn't even know you.
But these words,
They can't replace,
The life you waste.
How could you paint this picture?
Was life as bad as it should seem?
Were there no more options for you?
I can't explain how I feel.
I've been there many times before.
I've tasted the cold stel of my life crashing down before me.
Did Daddy not love you?
Or did he love you just too much?
Did he control you?
Did he live through you at your cost?
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own?
WELL FUCK THEM,
AND FUCK HER,
AND FUCK HIM,
AND FUCK YOU FOR NOT HAVING THE STRENGTH IN YOUR HEART TO PULL THROUGH,
I'VE HAD DOUBTS, I'VE HAD FEARS,
I'VE FUCKED UP, I'VE HAD PAIN,
DOESN'T MEAN I SHOULD TAKE MY LIFE WITH MY OWN HANDS.