"I'll be whatever I wanna do!"
I haven't read any of my comments or re-read any of my entries or friends' pages in almost two weeks. I decided that I just want to write stuff for a while and not worry about what other people are saying. Maybe I'll check back in a few months when the current present is past and so doesn't affect me as much.
Btw, I have Avoident Personality Disorder. Okay, actually I haven't gone to see a doctor yet to get an official diagnosis, but Evan and both of my parents (remarkably, since they usually just tell me I'm fine and to take more herbal supplements) and I have all looked over some sites and the symptoms, and we all agree that it fits me. I think I've left my house thrice in the past month, and on the support group page I feel like people scanned my brain and have the blueprints and complete script to my mind and mental workings. So here goes... I guess I've got some stuff to work on.
Today was fun. I rescued Kim and then went guitar shopping with Jaizj. I want to have a guitar party, and I want to finish fixing my Ovation.
I'm also looking forward to Thanksgiving 'cause I'll be seeing family and Evan and friends... And I'll get to do lots of cooking! I mean, I've already been doing lots of cooking, but it'll be TONS of cooking. I might even do a half and half turkey. Like, season one side one way and the other side another way. It might help a bit with the post-Thanksgiving ritual of leftover-turkey-themed meals.
About 10 minutes ago while I was building myself a sundae out of my latest homemade ice cream and talking to myself, I realized that in five days Evan and I will have been together for 2 and a half years. I had kind of forgotten how close the date was coming. Wow. *shrug* That's cool! -And amazing... Honestly it's sort of a weird thing for me to realize because while I have all these memories to draw on and calendar evidence that we've been going out for this long, it doesn't feel like it's been ohmygoshalongtime. It just feels like Evan and me. It's like watching your face change in the mirror day to day. Even though you know they're happening and the time is going by -you're getting older and stuff, you don't really notice the time or the differences all that much. Through it all, you know that you're you, and as far as that's concerned, time isn't necessarily all that significant. There are challenges and adventures and new stuff and old stuff and good stuff and bad stuff and all the nice and easy mellow times between... Now I'm rambling, but I guess I'm just trying to say that it's been one of those good parts of life that could go on for great lengths and you'd still be so caught up in it that you'd never notice the time but for the memories and physical evidence. 'Sbeen wonderful.
Been two months since I've seen that boy too! The distance hasn't even been nearly as bad to deal with as last year. I guess I've gotten used to it or emotionally adjusted or something. I dunno, it's much better. I'm still excited, though! ^_^
I've been thinking about getting my hair cut short... after it gets down to my butt.
And I love Futurama.
And I'm on the phone.
Goodnight!
Btw, I have Avoident Personality Disorder. Okay, actually I haven't gone to see a doctor yet to get an official diagnosis, but Evan and both of my parents (remarkably, since they usually just tell me I'm fine and to take more herbal supplements) and I have all looked over some sites and the symptoms, and we all agree that it fits me. I think I've left my house thrice in the past month, and on the support group page I feel like people scanned my brain and have the blueprints and complete script to my mind and mental workings. So here goes... I guess I've got some stuff to work on.
Today was fun. I rescued Kim and then went guitar shopping with Jaizj. I want to have a guitar party, and I want to finish fixing my Ovation.
I'm also looking forward to Thanksgiving 'cause I'll be seeing family and Evan and friends... And I'll get to do lots of cooking! I mean, I've already been doing lots of cooking, but it'll be TONS of cooking. I might even do a half and half turkey. Like, season one side one way and the other side another way. It might help a bit with the post-Thanksgiving ritual of leftover-turkey-themed meals.
About 10 minutes ago while I was building myself a sundae out of my latest homemade ice cream and talking to myself, I realized that in five days Evan and I will have been together for 2 and a half years. I had kind of forgotten how close the date was coming. Wow. *shrug* That's cool! -And amazing... Honestly it's sort of a weird thing for me to realize because while I have all these memories to draw on and calendar evidence that we've been going out for this long, it doesn't feel like it's been ohmygoshalongtime. It just feels like Evan and me. It's like watching your face change in the mirror day to day. Even though you know they're happening and the time is going by -you're getting older and stuff, you don't really notice the time or the differences all that much. Through it all, you know that you're you, and as far as that's concerned, time isn't necessarily all that significant. There are challenges and adventures and new stuff and old stuff and good stuff and bad stuff and all the nice and easy mellow times between... Now I'm rambling, but I guess I'm just trying to say that it's been one of those good parts of life that could go on for great lengths and you'd still be so caught up in it that you'd never notice the time but for the memories and physical evidence. 'Sbeen wonderful.
Been two months since I've seen that boy too! The distance hasn't even been nearly as bad to deal with as last year. I guess I've gotten used to it or emotionally adjusted or something. I dunno, it's much better. I'm still excited, though! ^_^
I've been thinking about getting my hair cut short... after it gets down to my butt.
And I love Futurama.
And I'm on the phone.
Goodnight!