ugh, i'm burnt out

[xristina]

this weekend was interesting, but i can't remember much of anything that went on other than him. (i won't use his name here, it's unimportant) when he told me that it was over with her, i coulnd't breathe. i swear to god, i just wasn't expecting it, and i guess that after three years of wishing, it just hit me like a ton of bricks, and i've been

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Re: WARNING: this is harsh but necessary

[xtaylerocksx]

its not about going back to jackie. its just maybe she was right, she told me everyone treats me like shit, and they do christina. pay attention the next time we all hang out, they treat me so bad that it makes me ill. its like i cant stand it, because im so tired of coming home and crying because of something that was said to me. they are supposed to be my friends and be supportive of me, and i dont feel any support, and i dont want to break up with brian, and i dont plan on it any time soon because i love him, but im scared christina, im so scared, do you have any idea what he is capable of doing to me? and its like i have no clue what he wants me to do, or how he wants me to act and that bothers me... i dont want to need everyone, cause then what will i do when they go away? what the fuck will i do!?

tay

Barely able to keep the lids open
At times I might think I need the rest
but who would want to go back there?
It's already hard enough to say I need it.
bad memories and good times.
Keep me from believing that I can still jump off.
No longer, no longer the same.
you grow accustomed to seeing the sun in a different location.
Standing still becomes a chore.
Anxious to get the pavement moving.
The easy solution to this and everything else is to move on.
It comes equipped with the last word.
they find ways to drag you along
and dismantle what you created.
It's already hard enough to say I need it
Bad memories and good times.
Keep me from believing that I can still jump off.
No longer, no longer the same.
You grow accustomed to seeing the sun in a different location.
Standing still becomes a chore.
Anxious to get the pavement moving.
Happiness is not having to lie on the floor dead alone.
-poison the well

ugh, poison the well ***SMACK*** EMO-KID!!!! :)

[xristina]

like i said earlier, you're going to do whatever you want, but just think: would you be HAPPIER without the group? if so, get out. but if it would just make you sad and wistful, what's the point, y'know?

just think before you do anything drastic.
xoxoxo-
christina

"ooh child, things are gonna get easier.
ooh child, things will get brighter" - TUPAC (woot woot!)

Re: ugh, poison the well ***SMACK*** EMO-KID!!!! :)

[xtaylerocksx]

i could never be happier without them, but i think its time to bring up to them what their rudeness does to me, and how it makes me feel, because then i can hear shit straight from them. thats really what i need to do. because its been eating away at me for to long. and i need to see brian, just to make sure this whole thing is okay... i really need to see him. and i think about him looking at me and meaning what he said and everything else just falls away, but how much longer will i have to wait for that to happen again, and i think about him and how he said he wasnt ashamed of me, but then i think of the times hes pushed me away from him and wouldnt let me touch him and i think about how much that hurt...and i never want to feel that way, and im just constantly scared he'll do that to me *what would you do if i went to kiss your neck would you slip my throat? -brand new*

much love
tay

With every part of mine
fall away with every bit of you
I miss me
give me some place to find
I'll meet cold everyday
think of all I need you around
but for now anyways
hands held tight around me leave me