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Work is crap, but I feel stronger for doing it. Strange that I should use the chaos to fulfill my dreams of one day having a peaceful life. Life has rarely ever been peaceful, as far back as I can remember. When it has it was in my solitude; as my heart was aching for a friend I began to understand life as a person standing in the middle of rush hour, observing. Waiting.
Believe it or not I am happy most of the time, just uncertain. Even if I'm not where I want to be, I'm content knowing that there IS somewhere I'd rather be. And that if being where I am now will put me one step closer to being there, then all is good. As long as I keep moving, progressing, on some level. The uncertainty of course is what makes life more exciting. We would have no passion if we felt no need to assert our certainty. So why shouldn't I be happy? Given that these things are true.
I suppose the key ingredient is trust. And trust takes action. Words are very easy for me: I can build and contort them into so many beautiful compliments and ideas. It's integrity in making those ideas tangible that has brought me this far. I detest empty words.. why use them? They don't even improve on silence.
Do I have doubts? Naturally. Do I remain true and hope for the best? As long as I breathe! I'll keep standing in the rush hour traffic, unmoved, comfortably numb, until you arrive to take me home.
Do not let loyalty and faithfulness forsake you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart.
Believe it or not I am happy most of the time, just uncertain. Even if I'm not where I want to be, I'm content knowing that there IS somewhere I'd rather be. And that if being where I am now will put me one step closer to being there, then all is good. As long as I keep moving, progressing, on some level. The uncertainty of course is what makes life more exciting. We would have no passion if we felt no need to assert our certainty. So why shouldn't I be happy? Given that these things are true.
I suppose the key ingredient is trust. And trust takes action. Words are very easy for me: I can build and contort them into so many beautiful compliments and ideas. It's integrity in making those ideas tangible that has brought me this far. I detest empty words.. why use them? They don't even improve on silence.
Do I have doubts? Naturally. Do I remain true and hope for the best? As long as I breathe! I'll keep standing in the rush hour traffic, unmoved, comfortably numb, until you arrive to take me home.
Do not let loyalty and faithfulness forsake you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart.