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I would like to go shark diving. I really love sharks. I have for as long as I can remember. My family always jokes about that. But right now I'm just watching Animal Planet and these divers scoping out great whites in the "ring of death" in this submarine-like cage, and I just really wish I was there right now. I love and fear the ocean so much. I can barely even swim but I am so excited by this world that we've barely "scratched the surface" of. If I could I would live on a boat and spend every day sitting in a cage and sea-animal watching. I would let every thought float away except for that very moment and time and concentrate deeply on just breathing, living, and letting live. To see things in their impermanence, a movie instead of still frames, like watching a flower opening. It's so rare and requires so much patience yet in return it's absolutely liberating. I saw that movie "Into the Wild" the other day. It would be like that, only under the ocean. Maybe I would die too, but I feel that it would be in a state of absolute peace and freedom. What more could someone ask for?