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I think my brother's girlfriend broke up with him, and boy, was it rough. It definitely could've been worse (in my playing out hundreds of scenarios to the umpteenth degree mind), but I'm glad that it seems to have settled down.
I tried to write this a few times but didn't finish. I don't mean to make it all about me and my inability to feel, but on the other hand, wouldn't it be weird if I just gave a history and analysis of their relationship *Conan's "nerd" voice* all over my Internet blog? I was pacing and Googling, "How to help someone through a breakup," which is weird because one of the first things that showed up was a page by that Jwoww girl from the Jersey Shore, but when shit needs action in a split-second, I can't do that. All I can do is marvel about how weird relationships are.
Isn't it weird how breakups are sad? Well, yeah, but they shouldn't be devastating, right? Like, co-dependency? That's not healthy, right? I mean, obviously, I wouldn't know, but isn't it weird how like, to be in one, you ought to be able to take care of a whole other person. You have to think about all the things that you think about but how this other person is dealing with his/her family and his/her work or his/her self-image and issues with politics, and like, I'm still trying to decide if I like cantaloupe or not. I just vacuumed my room since who knows when, and I keep putting off doing my toenails. I can't even be bothered to file my fingernails anymore, I just cut them super short so that I don't scratch my face like a stupid infant baby...
And then I see children and people being together, and I'm like, "Do they know this? Does this count?..."
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So with that going on, another thing I was thinking about-- I'msuchanasshole-- is, "Yeah, post a Taylor Swift lyric," like some dumb guy in a movie challenging a computer screen. I know that's really immature (cf "dumb"), and she doesn't even post TS lyrics, but her sister does, but it's not even to a point that's it's bothersome...
She (the sister) posted something I guess you could say is a Filipino mannerism? But it's not like exclusively Filipinos do this or can do this, yes? Ugh, I know I'm probably conveying a tone to text on the Internet, but I just read it as, "omg! Look @ how ~quirky~ I'm being! lol! so random!!!111!!!" And people like this post and have a grand ol' party in the comments because
HAHAHAHA, YES IT'S SO GREAT BEING AN ETHNICITY THAT PEOPLE CALL THE ASIAN MEXICANS AND JOKE ABOUT ORDERING THE WOMEN LIKE MERCHANDISE OUT OF FUCKING CATALOGUE.
Yeah, no because people aren't fucking people. They're fucking items. Items for fucking.
And now somebody wants to have a fun little party to see Jo Koy. Yeah, where were you three years ago or whenever it was I was babbling about asking the guy who does Filipino accent impressions for a living to Sinulog, and he didn't even reply? Yeah, fuck that guy! You wanna talk about comedy, 0 comments on me seeing Mike Birbiglia or asking your opinion on Rory Scovel.
I've hidden updates from a lot of people on FB (which is one of these great reliefs in life, like I just experienced another one today when my dad said that he held a certain position on something in the news, and I know people are entitled to their own beliefs and blahblhsdfb, but idk, when it's your own family, don't you feel obligated to convince educate them? Or not even that, like when people are so set in their ways, you can't even discuss with them, like you can feel that just crushing your chest and that's why everyone hates the holidays? HAha, but omg when you don't have to deal with that, and you just feel cancer not killing you, sigh, it's great), and since I don't even use it, I imagine a lot of people have done that to me, and also because this, right here, what I'm doing.
I kinda gave up reading about Palestine which I kinda feel bad about, but ... I wanted to learn what Bush did in office, so I picked up a book called Utter Incompetents.
Yeah.