well my life is shit

[xreigninflame]

well if your like really retarted and havent figured out that i feel like shit, heres some more. ok check it out. doug dees he goes to my school. in 9th grade we were cool, not friends but cool, now in 11th grade hes all like bitchy to me. im like dude WTF. i go over to say hi to one of my friends whom he must like and hes like "go away you f^&*ing nazi." no idea what i did to the kid. but it doesnt usally bother me i usally ignore him and do my thing. but he went away and nia my friend followed him. this is as im saying hi to her. she like either doenst care (i have tryed to say hi several times today) or didnt hear me. not sure but its like wow people really care for me..... i wonder how many people out side of family would care if i died right now. im guess in all seriousness.....3 maybe if im luck. so what does this mean. i have no real friends. no true friends. no meaningful relationships. im alone. still. again. again. no where to go but home. no to care for. no to care about me. no one to protect. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....

every day death looks for inviting. everyday im closer to it.

(dont worry im not thinking about that its just i how feel)

AHH i need a hug