today has sucked, yesterday sucked, and the day before that... you get it.
well, let's see, jordan was put in juvenile on wed. for making a "threat", which i'm pretty sure the teacher was just being stupid, and now i haven't talked to him for about... three days, and i'm going crazy about it. i guess i like him alot more then i thought at first. it's like, he has everything that i want and then some. he has the heighth of brian wright, the appeal of cj crew, and the personality of zac wood. all of which are boyfriends that i actually truely cared for. and now i can't even hear his voice. i hate feeling this way. and the fact that i feel this way so soon is bad. i mean, i could be falling for him right now, and in the end i am going to get nothing out of it... again... for the hundreth time. So I really hope that he isn't like brian, cj, and zac in the sense that they were all jerks in the end when they broke my heart. i swear, and then since i was feeling sorry for myself, i gave my number to justin aguayo just to fill the "void", and he freaking called over at jody's house trying to find me yesterday. it was like, ok we haven't even talked about us talking, and your already stressing about where i'm at and who i'm with... :cough "stalker" cough: i think i have the worst luck with guys... and not only that but aj got caught drinking before school, so he's kicked out... he was in juvenile... so megan made a comment ("every guy rachel talks to gets locked up") ain't that the truth!?! so yay, i'm a bad luck charm with legs.
and not only that, tonight we had a game, and everything that could go wrong seemed to... go wrong. I mean, we all must be pms-ing pretty badly, cuz we couldn't seem to agree on ANYTHING... AND I MEAN ANYTHING! i don't know. i just can't wait to get out of cheerleading and start dancing again. it's the only real thing i enjoy anymore... i mean it's always the answer to anything... it doesn't leave me or get bored like a guy... it doesn't disagree with me like friends and fellow cheerleaders... it's just an outlet, like writing. so i don't really care at this point if i get kicked off the squad or not... i'm just gonna have as much fun as i can... i mean, what else can i do... run around naked? hey that actually sounds like fun right now...
and not only that, tonight we had a game, and everything that could go wrong seemed to... go wrong. I mean, we all must be pms-ing pretty badly, cuz we couldn't seem to agree on ANYTHING... AND I MEAN ANYTHING! i don't know. i just can't wait to get out of cheerleading and start dancing again. it's the only real thing i enjoy anymore... i mean it's always the answer to anything... it doesn't leave me or get bored like a guy... it doesn't disagree with me like friends and fellow cheerleaders... it's just an outlet, like writing. so i don't really care at this point if i get kicked off the squad or not... i'm just gonna have as much fun as i can... i mean, what else can i do... run around naked? hey that actually sounds like fun right now...