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So from this point on high school means nothing. If it were even possible for me to fuck up at my school, doing so would mean nothing.
Its kind of reliving. It also makes me really question what the point is. But of course ill be a good girl and keep going to school up until graduation. Dont want to miss the possiblility to make some great memories right?!?!?! *puke*
Anyway, its Thursday night. I should be out having some kind of social life, but I think i would praefer to curl up in a ball and not wake up untill June. Ill proablly end up giving Tony a call and seeing what hes up to. I miss him.
My life has been topsy turvey. Ive been trying to update, but everytime I do I type a few paragraphs then delete them. Eh.
-insert break from writing-
Whoa, that was odd. I just talked to my Grandma O'hara! (if I would have been born with her name I would have been Sarah O'harer) Talk about a blast from the past! She is kinda my grandmother, but I haven't talked to her in years! She sounds like she is slipping into senility though, and kept reminding herself that she was talking to me I think ("Oh its so nice to talk to you...Sarah") poor lady. I told her that once I get a car I will come and vist her. She is like 78, and im sure she would enjoy the company. Id be scared to go and see her though, I think that all the facial piercings would give her a heart atack.
Woo. Im actually making progress with this update!
My mother has been acting crazy. She has totally lost it and started to talk to herself and get super paranoid that Brian and I were talking about her. She stopped sleeping/eating, and has been super over the edge. Of course Brian doesn't want to listen to me that his wife is completely manic and could probally benifit from a hospital stay. Whatever. She truly shared her insainity yesterday when I had a parent conference between her and my counciler Bob. It started off okay, with my mother playing her well rehersed "concerned parent" role, but as the meeting went on and turned to our homelife her mood completely changed. It went on with her not denying the horrible tension in our house but not offering any even close to willingness to change things. She started freaking out that if I dont like the way that things are in our house that I should leave and never come back. Then she scooped up her things, screamed, "I dont have to take this!" and ran out of the school.
Bob felt horrible. I felt mortified.
I cried for a while after that, but eventually with the ear of Kelley I started to feel better.
Im going to go smoke and call Tony!
15 days until graduation!