(no subject)
thinking about predjudice-and how we all get so caught
wrapped into this thing of wanting-or needing to "fit in"
personally-i have never fit in -in anything
when i was younger--this "sucked"
but now-i see it as good
who wants to be what is "so easy" --
"fitting in"-in my mind-is boring
and so self-involved
yeh-we all are self involved in many ways--never escape that...impossible...and really-not so "evil" as it sounds
but-to "go with the flow" and fluff-about without "thinking"/"looking"/"feeling"--
no way
ok...
my "sad" state has become a bit "ftw" (i am sure everyone knows what that stands for..)
just listened a few times to one song ..
(chameleons uk -"looking inwardly")
love this part:
"...using me as a scapegoat
for what you want to believe
so i'll just bow out politely
and tip my cap as i leave.."
anyway..
just thinking...or stewing...
i guess what bugs me is when people see those who are "pushed or held down" by some "outward" predjudice-if "they" in turn feel a "ftw" attitude-it comes off like they are some sort of "victim" or a complainer--but-that is so untrue...it is really more of a --well..i am going to live my life now..i no longer want to be "ruled"
--to lives ones life
why does that sounds so "selfish"??
yes-i am a bit reactive today...
blahhhh
--but-always open ...
but still...
reactive....
wrapped into this thing of wanting-or needing to "fit in"
personally-i have never fit in -in anything
when i was younger--this "sucked"
but now-i see it as good
who wants to be what is "so easy" --
"fitting in"-in my mind-is boring
and so self-involved
yeh-we all are self involved in many ways--never escape that...impossible...and really-not so "evil" as it sounds
but-to "go with the flow" and fluff-about without "thinking"/"looking"/"feeling"--
no way
ok...
my "sad" state has become a bit "ftw" (i am sure everyone knows what that stands for..)
just listened a few times to one song ..
(chameleons uk -"looking inwardly")
love this part:
"...using me as a scapegoat
for what you want to believe
so i'll just bow out politely
and tip my cap as i leave.."
anyway..
just thinking...or stewing...
i guess what bugs me is when people see those who are "pushed or held down" by some "outward" predjudice-if "they" in turn feel a "ftw" attitude-it comes off like they are some sort of "victim" or a complainer--but-that is so untrue...it is really more of a --well..i am going to live my life now..i no longer want to be "ruled"
--to lives ones life
why does that sounds so "selfish"??
yes-i am a bit reactive today...
blahhhh
--but-always open ...
but still...
reactive....