progress report: i am missing you to death
here are a few pics from the friday of martha's birthday weekend. we were doing some photo shoot stuff before hand and then...4 girls & a 24...oOoOo yah!
Andrea's dead & I'm looking...like a crackhead! haha We all almost got hit by a train a few minutes later. Scary shit.
So that's my new hair & you can probably kinda see my bridge piercing. Sexx.
BEER!!!!
Lauren, Martha & I love our beer! ;D
I love drunk!
my anxiety problems + a long distance relationship = SUCKY!!!
seriously.
and then bitches have to come and fuck it up even more with their drama and rumours.
garret's ex-girlfriend, who claims i "stole" garret from her (yes, i kissed him when they were still kind of together but they got back together after that & i don't think i had anything to do with their break up, she's just pissed we got together so soon after but fuck her) told me last week that she had stayed at garret's house at the beginning of may. i didn't want to think anything of it but i e-mailed garret because i wanted to know what had happened since before he had told me she'd call him needing a place to stay because she got kicked out & that he'd told her to go elsewhere.
so then yesterday i go to work & get to hear all kinds of stories from random co-workers i barely know about when garret & alexa were together, & how in love they were & all the things he used to say to her. *GAG!* & then i get the story that they fooled around when i was with him. it was just starting to really grate on me. especially since he's not here so i can't just get it all straightened out. when i get off work and get to check my e-mail garret's e-mailed me and he says yah, alexa did stay over but they slept in different rooms but that's it, if she says anything else happened she's lying. really he shouldn't be calling her the liar though since he didnt lie to me about it in the first place.
AND THEN alexa comes on and i ask her about the fooling around thing she allegedly spread around. she asks if she can call me & she will tell me the absolute truth, blah blah blah. she says that she went over there & they hung out & watched movies & acted exactly like they did when they were together & they kissed but nothing else happened & he slept on the couch & she slept in his room. she was sounding SO sincere, apologizing for not telling me but that she hadn't wanted to get involved, yadda yadda yadda.
i'm so upset & confused & frustrated & mad that i'm shaking & close to tears but i have no idea what to do. my best friend jessi ended up looking up the number for the resort where garret's working & leaving a message that he has to call his girlfriend. the guy who took it was like, "he's in trouble isn't he?" ha!
he called me back & said that no they hadn't kissed, nothing had happened and he sounded so upset that i don't think i can not believe him.
but wtf? am i letting myself be completely fucked around here? i don't know what to do and i don't know why people have to do stuff like this.
i miss him so much it hurts and i just want him to come home.