im so sick of this
for once i want to be the first on someones list. i want to be top-priority for once. everyone has there boyfriends and crushes and new friends. and where am i? nowhere. im always second. and it sucks. i want someones whos going to put me first before anything else. i want someone to care for me before themselves. and its not going to happen. i know its not. whats so wrong with me? no guys like me. i cant make friends. shit. am i that fucked up? apparently. i feel so empty. like i dont even have God anymore. what can i do if i dont even have God anymore?! i just dont know what to do anymore.