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I'm not at school, as you can tell, because me has a headache :(
Had a sore head all day at work yesterday but I didn't go home because I could never find a manager. Work was kinda fun though, did a lot of Benji cuddling. And I did shout "It sucks giant cock!" at Alison when I was talking about how much the place sucked. Was glad no little kiddies were about. Oh, and I found out that they are indeed tearing the place down which makes me uber happy because it sucks....sucks giant cock! Means I can get a new job in a more interesting shop.
Went to Asda with Rebekah last night. I bought Shrek 2 on DVD (Which rocks ma socks!), Manson CD and a Christmas present for my mum i.e. Robbie Williams CD and book. We bought laods of munchies as well then proceeded to go home and stuff our faces while watching Shrek 2. I am now officially in love with Puss in Boots.
Rebekah has forgiven mum about the whole Derek thing.(Thats her dad's name. Well if he is her dad) She's been texting him a lot over the weekend and he seems pretty certain that he's her dad. I saw a picture of him and had a silent giggle because he looks like a chav but he's not. He's going back down to London then they're going to get stuff sorted out. When she was texting him, I started to get quite upset because of my fuckwit of a dad. Derek wants to know Rebekah, so why doesn't Mark want to know me? Am I that much of a mistake that he chooses to go on in his life pretending that I don't exist? I've been thinking a lot about it over the weekend and ran through different scenerios of what might happen if I went to see them. I hope most of them never happen. I hate this. I hate not having a proper dad. Yeah, I've had my grandad but he's more a father figure than a real dad. I never really connected with him like that. And Ian's great because we're so alike so we can have the most random conversations sometimes and have such a laugh. But he's not my dad. He never will be. Sometimes I just want to run to Mark's house and hug him, other times I want to go and punch him. Why has he done this to me? Go through life without a proper dad. All these stupid little things that dad's do, he'll never get to do because he's such a dick. One time, I had a picture in my head of getting married, and waiting for him to give me away, but he never turned up. I hate this, I really do. I'm going to have to contact him soon because it's eating me up thinking about it so much.
Just wish that he cared enough to do it first. It must mean that he doesn't want to know me.
Again, I need to change the topic..
I had the weirdest dreams last night. First I found three hamsters in a deserted house. Was really weird 0.o Sure the Queen was in that dream, dunno how. Then the dream changed and I was in this weird American house (like the one in the first Scream film at the start) Someone was with me, along with another guy. Well this guy was fighting with the person I wa with (I'm sure it was Simon when I woke up) And then I heard a gun shot and then blacked out. When I woke up, I had a huge plaster over my stomach and it hurt to move. The guy sohuted at me and told me we'd been shot. I lifted the palster and had a huge wound and was like 0.o Simon was shot too. I'm sure it was the guy that shot us but he agreed to take us to the hospital. I got all excited because I've never been to the hospital before then started to argue with the guy about how to get there the quickest.The weirdest thing about that dream was that I could actually feel the pain of having just been shot. I get that a lot with dreams that I get hurt in...tis mega freaky.
Then the next dream...well there's a house and I kept trying to break in but the security guards kept stopping me. Loads of people I used to be friends with were there but I can't remember much else. The only thing that sticks out abut that dream is that I've dreamt about that house before. The layout is exactly the same, I could draw it now...but I can't be assed.
I need to go revise for my Biology test (Which I was menat to be sitting today) and then do anything else that catches my fancy i.e. force myself to make notes for my Dissertation.
Talk to you guys soon!
Tata
Rach
xxx
P.S. Cricket, did you get my letter yet?
Had a sore head all day at work yesterday but I didn't go home because I could never find a manager. Work was kinda fun though, did a lot of Benji cuddling. And I did shout "It sucks giant cock!" at Alison when I was talking about how much the place sucked. Was glad no little kiddies were about. Oh, and I found out that they are indeed tearing the place down which makes me uber happy because it sucks....sucks giant cock! Means I can get a new job in a more interesting shop.
Went to Asda with Rebekah last night. I bought Shrek 2 on DVD (Which rocks ma socks!), Manson CD and a Christmas present for my mum i.e. Robbie Williams CD and book. We bought laods of munchies as well then proceeded to go home and stuff our faces while watching Shrek 2. I am now officially in love with Puss in Boots.
Rebekah has forgiven mum about the whole Derek thing.(Thats her dad's name. Well if he is her dad) She's been texting him a lot over the weekend and he seems pretty certain that he's her dad. I saw a picture of him and had a silent giggle because he looks like a chav but he's not. He's going back down to London then they're going to get stuff sorted out. When she was texting him, I started to get quite upset because of my fuckwit of a dad. Derek wants to know Rebekah, so why doesn't Mark want to know me? Am I that much of a mistake that he chooses to go on in his life pretending that I don't exist? I've been thinking a lot about it over the weekend and ran through different scenerios of what might happen if I went to see them. I hope most of them never happen. I hate this. I hate not having a proper dad. Yeah, I've had my grandad but he's more a father figure than a real dad. I never really connected with him like that. And Ian's great because we're so alike so we can have the most random conversations sometimes and have such a laugh. But he's not my dad. He never will be. Sometimes I just want to run to Mark's house and hug him, other times I want to go and punch him. Why has he done this to me? Go through life without a proper dad. All these stupid little things that dad's do, he'll never get to do because he's such a dick. One time, I had a picture in my head of getting married, and waiting for him to give me away, but he never turned up. I hate this, I really do. I'm going to have to contact him soon because it's eating me up thinking about it so much.
Just wish that he cared enough to do it first. It must mean that he doesn't want to know me.
Again, I need to change the topic..
I had the weirdest dreams last night. First I found three hamsters in a deserted house. Was really weird 0.o Sure the Queen was in that dream, dunno how. Then the dream changed and I was in this weird American house (like the one in the first Scream film at the start) Someone was with me, along with another guy. Well this guy was fighting with the person I wa with (I'm sure it was Simon when I woke up) And then I heard a gun shot and then blacked out. When I woke up, I had a huge plaster over my stomach and it hurt to move. The guy sohuted at me and told me we'd been shot. I lifted the palster and had a huge wound and was like 0.o Simon was shot too. I'm sure it was the guy that shot us but he agreed to take us to the hospital. I got all excited because I've never been to the hospital before then started to argue with the guy about how to get there the quickest.The weirdest thing about that dream was that I could actually feel the pain of having just been shot. I get that a lot with dreams that I get hurt in...tis mega freaky.
Then the next dream...well there's a house and I kept trying to break in but the security guards kept stopping me. Loads of people I used to be friends with were there but I can't remember much else. The only thing that sticks out abut that dream is that I've dreamt about that house before. The layout is exactly the same, I could draw it now...but I can't be assed.
I need to go revise for my Biology test (Which I was menat to be sitting today) and then do anything else that catches my fancy i.e. force myself to make notes for my Dissertation.
Talk to you guys soon!
Tata
Rach
xxx
P.S. Cricket, did you get my letter yet?