unmotivated
soo i was planning on finishing work at 4, going to pick up my jeans from the tailor, depositing my check, going to the grocery store for a few quick things and then coming home. instead, i stayed an extra half hour at work and then went directly to the grocery store because i wasnt thinking. so now i dont have my jeans and i have a piece of paper instead of 160 bucks in my account. booo.
and now im laying in bed completely unmotivated to do anything. i really meant to nap, but then my wife called, and then my mom called, and then my wife called again.. and now its already 7;20. i really want to drink tonight with everybody, but im so exhausted that it might not make a whole lot of sense. i contemplated watching gone baby gone since i havent seen it, but i dont think thats happening either. oh what a tough life i lead, haha. my current exhaustion combined with knowing that i have to be up at 7;30 to be at a staff meeting by 8;30 tomorrow morning is not very thrilling.
my boyfriend is having his friend from another school come tonight, so that should be fun. im not sure how many of my other friends are drinking though, so if he expects a party.. idk. haha.
last weekend his friend was supposed to come on saturday night, but he ended up having a huge mental breakdown and crying to me for like, almost an hour & a half, so he cancelled on him. it was pretty scary actually, ive seen guys and ex boyfriends cry, but for the longest time he absolutely refused to tell me why he was even crying, so i had no idea what to say or do, or if it had to do with us. it ended up being him freaking out that he doesnt have a solid group of guys at school, and even though my friends have really adopted him as part of the group, he feels like if we were to break up [or when i go abroad, if i go in the spring] that he wont be invited out, that people will 'choose' me over him. he admitted, in the middle of the bawling, that sometimes he feels like im the only thing he has here, that if we werent dating he would seriously consider transferring. i definitely understand that he feels alone here - he transferred in a semester late freshman year when everyone else had already made friends. even though hes not the most out going guy, he definitely is a great guy who makes friends & acquaintances really easily, and i know that he has more friends than he gives himself credit for. not to mention, we have a mutual best friend who introduced us and i absolutely know that she would still be his friend if anything were to happen between us.
i honestly have been writing this for almost an hour but my roommate and i have been talking and now im totally distracted so ill just end this here. happy weekend :)
and now im laying in bed completely unmotivated to do anything. i really meant to nap, but then my wife called, and then my mom called, and then my wife called again.. and now its already 7;20. i really want to drink tonight with everybody, but im so exhausted that it might not make a whole lot of sense. i contemplated watching gone baby gone since i havent seen it, but i dont think thats happening either. oh what a tough life i lead, haha. my current exhaustion combined with knowing that i have to be up at 7;30 to be at a staff meeting by 8;30 tomorrow morning is not very thrilling.
my boyfriend is having his friend from another school come tonight, so that should be fun. im not sure how many of my other friends are drinking though, so if he expects a party.. idk. haha.
last weekend his friend was supposed to come on saturday night, but he ended up having a huge mental breakdown and crying to me for like, almost an hour & a half, so he cancelled on him. it was pretty scary actually, ive seen guys and ex boyfriends cry, but for the longest time he absolutely refused to tell me why he was even crying, so i had no idea what to say or do, or if it had to do with us. it ended up being him freaking out that he doesnt have a solid group of guys at school, and even though my friends have really adopted him as part of the group, he feels like if we were to break up [or when i go abroad, if i go in the spring] that he wont be invited out, that people will 'choose' me over him. he admitted, in the middle of the bawling, that sometimes he feels like im the only thing he has here, that if we werent dating he would seriously consider transferring. i definitely understand that he feels alone here - he transferred in a semester late freshman year when everyone else had already made friends. even though hes not the most out going guy, he definitely is a great guy who makes friends & acquaintances really easily, and i know that he has more friends than he gives himself credit for. not to mention, we have a mutual best friend who introduced us and i absolutely know that she would still be his friend if anything were to happen between us.
i honestly have been writing this for almost an hour but my roommate and i have been talking and now im totally distracted so ill just end this here. happy weekend :)