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im sitting at work waiting for people to call me back for two stories im working on, and i was walking to work thinking about a bunch of stuff and decided id post in here since its been a while.
i was walking and passed this old asian lady, who kind of looked at me and i looked back at her. it was a strange moment, and i was tempted to say something, to prevent the judging that i knew was going on in her head. i am one of the most judgmental people i know. im constantly looking at people and criticizing, making funny comments in my head [or to other people, depending]. of course, im sure people judge me, im a little white girl with a polka dot backpack walking through bostons south end, rocking out to my ipods collection of extremely random rap. still, this lady had no idea that ive been studying chinese for a year and a half, that i find myself trying to think in the language, that i spent a month there this summer. it just made me think, beyond all the superficial judgements we make about the random people on the street, we truly have no idea who they are or they who we are. its just very strange to think about, that you see a multitude of people throughout the day and you know nothing about them. strange.
when one of my editors got into the office a while ago, she read out loud the chain of an email some nasty jerk sent her complaining about our coverage of a house bill. we've been on stall as the house is no longer in session right now, and everyone in the office has been working their asses off to figure out whats going on with it. this guy just calls my editor incompetent, insults the paper, was really rude. so we got into a discussion about how people are so inconsiderate, about how they can ruin the day of somebody they dont even know just to rant and be rude about something. if this guy really cared, he should call his legislative body and yell at them. strange to think about how that stuff can really effect us coming from a total stranger. on the flip side, i was walking back from work the other day and this guy told me to smile, that i was too pretty to be frowning. what inspired him to say something like that i have no idea, but it was such a random, strangely nice thing. people should compliment people more often.
in other news, im feeling slightly alone in boston these days. i love my coop job, and im so so lucky to have that, most of my friends hate their jobs. i get so many pieces published a week its unbelievable, they hand me so many opportunities, i love it. while i had a solid group of girls who i lived with last year, it seems that people show their true colors, and i guess you have to listen to them. i absolutely love the girl who was supposed to be my roommate this summer and for the next six months, but she wasnt able to get a job, and she had to move back home. she goes abroad in the spring, which means we go a whole year seeing each other only sporadically. at the same time, somebody who i thought was one of my closest friends here turned out not to be able to prioritize me in her life, and a number of situations have shown me that shes not worth depending on because she doesnt seem to learn from her mistakes or care enough, and im not feeling like shes worth fighting over right now. i have my best friend here, and her roommate who i get along with great but im not close with at all. while there are other girls that i hang out with, two or three of them im not huge fans of, which of course is my fault persay, but i really just dont feel close to them and dont feel like theyre girls that i would get close with. and of course there are the other random people in my life, but none of whom i hang out with on a regular basis. i love my boyfriend to death, he is incredible, but i dont want to just have him. idk. i realize it could be way worse, but im not looking forward to being shoved in a double with some random girl in the fall and having to deal with her shit, especially because 4 of my friends will be living together upstairs, and while my roommate and i had opted to live in the other 4 person suite with two random girls, the prospect of dealing with 3 girls all on my own does not sit well. ugh. stupid coop process. i miss my roommate.
aandd its 1;40 and nobody has called me back. i have to be at AE at 5 cause im covering somebodys shift tonight so that theyll cover me saturday night since alex will be here. which, btw, im stoaked for. turns out that my roommates might be going to the cape for the weekend [nice of them to not be here when my friend is here. not] so well have the place to ourselves, alex always comes up with ridiculous things to do so well see what ends up happening. i should probably pretend to be doing actual work, but that was a nice long rant.
<3 rach
i was walking and passed this old asian lady, who kind of looked at me and i looked back at her. it was a strange moment, and i was tempted to say something, to prevent the judging that i knew was going on in her head. i am one of the most judgmental people i know. im constantly looking at people and criticizing, making funny comments in my head [or to other people, depending]. of course, im sure people judge me, im a little white girl with a polka dot backpack walking through bostons south end, rocking out to my ipods collection of extremely random rap. still, this lady had no idea that ive been studying chinese for a year and a half, that i find myself trying to think in the language, that i spent a month there this summer. it just made me think, beyond all the superficial judgements we make about the random people on the street, we truly have no idea who they are or they who we are. its just very strange to think about, that you see a multitude of people throughout the day and you know nothing about them. strange.
when one of my editors got into the office a while ago, she read out loud the chain of an email some nasty jerk sent her complaining about our coverage of a house bill. we've been on stall as the house is no longer in session right now, and everyone in the office has been working their asses off to figure out whats going on with it. this guy just calls my editor incompetent, insults the paper, was really rude. so we got into a discussion about how people are so inconsiderate, about how they can ruin the day of somebody they dont even know just to rant and be rude about something. if this guy really cared, he should call his legislative body and yell at them. strange to think about how that stuff can really effect us coming from a total stranger. on the flip side, i was walking back from work the other day and this guy told me to smile, that i was too pretty to be frowning. what inspired him to say something like that i have no idea, but it was such a random, strangely nice thing. people should compliment people more often.
in other news, im feeling slightly alone in boston these days. i love my coop job, and im so so lucky to have that, most of my friends hate their jobs. i get so many pieces published a week its unbelievable, they hand me so many opportunities, i love it. while i had a solid group of girls who i lived with last year, it seems that people show their true colors, and i guess you have to listen to them. i absolutely love the girl who was supposed to be my roommate this summer and for the next six months, but she wasnt able to get a job, and she had to move back home. she goes abroad in the spring, which means we go a whole year seeing each other only sporadically. at the same time, somebody who i thought was one of my closest friends here turned out not to be able to prioritize me in her life, and a number of situations have shown me that shes not worth depending on because she doesnt seem to learn from her mistakes or care enough, and im not feeling like shes worth fighting over right now. i have my best friend here, and her roommate who i get along with great but im not close with at all. while there are other girls that i hang out with, two or three of them im not huge fans of, which of course is my fault persay, but i really just dont feel close to them and dont feel like theyre girls that i would get close with. and of course there are the other random people in my life, but none of whom i hang out with on a regular basis. i love my boyfriend to death, he is incredible, but i dont want to just have him. idk. i realize it could be way worse, but im not looking forward to being shoved in a double with some random girl in the fall and having to deal with her shit, especially because 4 of my friends will be living together upstairs, and while my roommate and i had opted to live in the other 4 person suite with two random girls, the prospect of dealing with 3 girls all on my own does not sit well. ugh. stupid coop process. i miss my roommate.
aandd its 1;40 and nobody has called me back. i have to be at AE at 5 cause im covering somebodys shift tonight so that theyll cover me saturday night since alex will be here. which, btw, im stoaked for. turns out that my roommates might be going to the cape for the weekend [nice of them to not be here when my friend is here. not] so well have the place to ourselves, alex always comes up with ridiculous things to do so well see what ends up happening. i should probably pretend to be doing actual work, but that was a nice long rant.
<3 rach