The evening....
I saw my old friend Jason in the B&N parkinglot tonight. We talked for about an hour while I froze to death as it is like 23 outside.... burrrr! But it was so good to talk to him! I've always kida had a crush on the guy! I used to go to his parents bible study... and he is like the only one that ever came up and said hey to me. With everyone else... I had to go up to them. And he would remember things... ask how I was doin and stuff. We havn't really seen eachother much in the last couple years untill I started goin to Westside for church. But it was awesome to talk to him tonight! We both have gone through a lot of the same stuff this last year... so it was encouraging! He managed to slip in to the conversation a couple times he thought I was hot! haha! He said a couple weeks ago he had checked me out at church and then realized it was me. He likes it that I am a little more "punk" than I used to be. Anyway.... I just pray that I guard my heart! I mean... he's an amazing guy! BUT! I don't want to get hurt again! Or get myself into a situation that would be a compromise. But it is good to have a friend around that is my age! And in Bend! He said he hangs out at B&N alot at night and that I should stop by and we can visit. So I might start to do that! A good safe place to get to know someone! It's kinda funny how when I was walking around I was noticing all the guy/girl couples that were sitting together and walking around... wishing I had that. Hmmm......