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ok so i was thinking today... i spoke to a friend.. this friend told me what i needed to hear... which was .. "monica this is wat u wanted" n its true.. but i also have something else in the back of my head that someone told me.. it might be a huge mess...
but after watching sex and the city.. i realized that mistakes happen.. it was said by cary.. but she also questioned herself "can u pass on fate becuase u made a mistake" n thats what made me realize that if i go with the flow shit happens for a reason..but if i stop somthing that actually might be good for me.. nothing will ever happen... i guess sometimes i refuse to understand that im suppose to feel this way.. u know confused.. but im always confused..in many ways.. 1. being the non stop crazy thoughts in my head... im always thinkign ...
ANYWAYS on another note.. i had a really bad afternoon... i didnt get to do my nails.. i had to go to some 15's practice with my sisters.. i recieved some bad news ... it made me really sad.. well not really.. it hit me afterwards.. when i started to think about it.. when my mom told me i guess i just brushed it off my shoulders.. now im going insanely crazy with all these emotions.. first i was sad.. now im mad.. while being mad.. i ran into someone... someone i didnt want to see.. just becuase we have so much heat between us... it bothers me cuz as close as ur are to someone.. u try to help them out.. n just becuase they r doing shit that is messing up there way of understanding things.. doesnt mean u have to be so dry with someone.. i know in time he will come through.. but for now.. this is really bothering me.. i wanna cry.. but im not.. its ok.. i guess... i talked to my mom about it.. u know what she told me to do..bake a cake... so guess what i did.. I BAKED A FUKIN CAKE!! the poor cake i took out all my anger on it.. lol .. (it was a double layer puddin brownie cake) so good.. but i just looked at it .. didnt even eat it.. n that made me happy.. haha..
sometimes i wanna stop thinking.. just for a min.. have a head full of no thoughts lol
I HAVE JUMPED THE GUN AGAIN! LOL
but after watching sex and the city.. i realized that mistakes happen.. it was said by cary.. but she also questioned herself "can u pass on fate becuase u made a mistake" n thats what made me realize that if i go with the flow shit happens for a reason..but if i stop somthing that actually might be good for me.. nothing will ever happen... i guess sometimes i refuse to understand that im suppose to feel this way.. u know confused.. but im always confused..in many ways.. 1. being the non stop crazy thoughts in my head... im always thinkign ...
ANYWAYS on another note.. i had a really bad afternoon... i didnt get to do my nails.. i had to go to some 15's practice with my sisters.. i recieved some bad news ... it made me really sad.. well not really.. it hit me afterwards.. when i started to think about it.. when my mom told me i guess i just brushed it off my shoulders.. now im going insanely crazy with all these emotions.. first i was sad.. now im mad.. while being mad.. i ran into someone... someone i didnt want to see.. just becuase we have so much heat between us... it bothers me cuz as close as ur are to someone.. u try to help them out.. n just becuase they r doing shit that is messing up there way of understanding things.. doesnt mean u have to be so dry with someone.. i know in time he will come through.. but for now.. this is really bothering me.. i wanna cry.. but im not.. its ok.. i guess... i talked to my mom about it.. u know what she told me to do..bake a cake... so guess what i did.. I BAKED A FUKIN CAKE!! the poor cake i took out all my anger on it.. lol .. (it was a double layer puddin brownie cake) so good.. but i just looked at it .. didnt even eat it.. n that made me happy.. haha..
sometimes i wanna stop thinking.. just for a min.. have a head full of no thoughts lol
I HAVE JUMPED THE GUN AGAIN! LOL