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I must admit, I am pretty depressed right now. Not in a real "emotional/mental" sense, it's hard to explain...I guess you could say I am just depressed with how certain situations have turned up lately in my life.
There is this guy Mike and I've liked him for a really, really long time. I started talking to him a little bit before I started talking to Josh. Needless to say, unfortunetly I chose Josh over him, and I have regretted it ever since I made that decision, and I really don't have regrets, everything happens for a reason and blah blah...however...I just felt like I made a bad choice, Mike was soooo sweet. He found out I worked at Ruby Tuesday and he left pictures under my windshield (not like creepy stalker pictures). He printed out these cute pictures of like these little furry animals, I forget what they were and then pictures of a puppies and he kept saying how cute each of the pictures were and the last page was blank and he said, but none of them are as cute as you. I will never forget that it was the cutest thing ever. And for some stupid reason, I started dating Josh, I guess at the time it seemed like a good idea. Oops. Anyway, we have been talking again recently..if you could say that, and I really like him. Like I dunno, it's been a while since I've liked someone this much. We met at borders a few weeks ago, and I really haven't been able to stop thinking about him since. He's is so smart, funny, ambitious, talented, and there is so much variety to him..not to mention he is super cute. :] I just don't think he feels the same way about me, and I don't blame him...but at the same time there are times where he mentions that he really misses me and wants to hang out with me. I am just confused, but for some reason am afraid to just come out and tell him how I feel about him, because we never see eachother...he goes to Mt. St. Mary's college, which granted isn't far, but both our schedules seem to be busy. booo. makes me sad. argh...hrmph.
Another thing is Jamie, which is just uugh. I don't even want to talk about it, but there are things about her and our friendship that really irriate me. Which is normal for any friendship I suppose.
Blah, what should I do?
Going to party tonight in Frederick though. yay!
There is this guy Mike and I've liked him for a really, really long time. I started talking to him a little bit before I started talking to Josh. Needless to say, unfortunetly I chose Josh over him, and I have regretted it ever since I made that decision, and I really don't have regrets, everything happens for a reason and blah blah...however...I just felt like I made a bad choice, Mike was soooo sweet. He found out I worked at Ruby Tuesday and he left pictures under my windshield (not like creepy stalker pictures). He printed out these cute pictures of like these little furry animals, I forget what they were and then pictures of a puppies and he kept saying how cute each of the pictures were and the last page was blank and he said, but none of them are as cute as you. I will never forget that it was the cutest thing ever. And for some stupid reason, I started dating Josh, I guess at the time it seemed like a good idea. Oops. Anyway, we have been talking again recently..if you could say that, and I really like him. Like I dunno, it's been a while since I've liked someone this much. We met at borders a few weeks ago, and I really haven't been able to stop thinking about him since. He's is so smart, funny, ambitious, talented, and there is so much variety to him..not to mention he is super cute. :] I just don't think he feels the same way about me, and I don't blame him...but at the same time there are times where he mentions that he really misses me and wants to hang out with me. I am just confused, but for some reason am afraid to just come out and tell him how I feel about him, because we never see eachother...he goes to Mt. St. Mary's college, which granted isn't far, but both our schedules seem to be busy. booo. makes me sad. argh...hrmph.
Another thing is Jamie, which is just uugh. I don't even want to talk about it, but there are things about her and our friendship that really irriate me. Which is normal for any friendship I suppose.
Blah, what should I do?
Going to party tonight in Frederick though. yay!