feels like i don't belong here...
i always forget why i come home sometimes.
My first truely free weekend in a long time so yury suggested i come home for the weekend to relax but it always turns into more frustration then rest.
I spent most of my time up at the ranch, which i've decided to stop doing. Everyone there always judges me and gives me this "oh you think you're so much better then us cause you got out of here" attitude. I had someone completely insult me over Yury and I's engagement. I'm sorry that the divorce rate is so high and NONE of your 5 marriges seemed to work out but don't take it out on me. cause sounds to me like you have issues. Most of the problem is the people who i considered my friends have left, so i don't really have anyone to hang with. A few of them left on some not so good terms with others, so what useually happens is i come back for a visit, i ask "hey,where's so and so" and i get an awkward silence and dirty looks. I hate that.
All this just further reminds me that i don't belong here. NYC is where i belong and I need to get back fast. This isn't my life anymore. I'll always visit, but my life here is over. Most of my friends are gone and the ones that are still here don't return phone calls. My life is with Yury now, that's my new comfort zone. There's little comfort left here.
My first truely free weekend in a long time so yury suggested i come home for the weekend to relax but it always turns into more frustration then rest.
I spent most of my time up at the ranch, which i've decided to stop doing. Everyone there always judges me and gives me this "oh you think you're so much better then us cause you got out of here" attitude. I had someone completely insult me over Yury and I's engagement. I'm sorry that the divorce rate is so high and NONE of your 5 marriges seemed to work out but don't take it out on me. cause sounds to me like you have issues. Most of the problem is the people who i considered my friends have left, so i don't really have anyone to hang with. A few of them left on some not so good terms with others, so what useually happens is i come back for a visit, i ask "hey,where's so and so" and i get an awkward silence and dirty looks. I hate that.
All this just further reminds me that i don't belong here. NYC is where i belong and I need to get back fast. This isn't my life anymore. I'll always visit, but my life here is over. Most of my friends are gone and the ones that are still here don't return phone calls. My life is with Yury now, that's my new comfort zone. There's little comfort left here.