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i went to halloween horror night this weekend. SO FUCKIN AWESOME! im sure ill post pictures later.
i really had such fun there even though i was totally scared.
i might not have picked the best group to go with.... but it didnt stop me from having a good time.
i got to hang out with david. and that in itself puts the biggest shit eating grin on my face =)
i think im over my whole group of wellington friends... they're just not good people...
ive known that for quite some time, its not like im a complete fuckin moron.. i knew they werent good people but i tried anyway cause they're fun to be with.
i really don't understand sometimes what my problem is... i hold on to all these people that just aren't good for me and make me feel fuckin miserable and the few people who have honestly and truly been good to me and are wonderful people to me.. i just end up fuckin over. its never intentional... i just honestly fuck up and i fuck up hardcore.
im sure there is some pyschoanalysis thats hidden here....that i push away people that are good to me cause of some self hatred thing... but then again... maybe im just a fuckin douchebag after all and im not the good person i thought i was.
all i know is im really fuckin sick of giving people second and third and fourth chances just to let them hurt me all over again.
im fuckin ramblin im sorry........ most of that came from fucked up events from this weekend but whatever....bottom line ...well... i dont know what the bottom line is, but im sure its not good
i really had such fun there even though i was totally scared.
i might not have picked the best group to go with.... but it didnt stop me from having a good time.
i got to hang out with david. and that in itself puts the biggest shit eating grin on my face =)
i think im over my whole group of wellington friends... they're just not good people...
ive known that for quite some time, its not like im a complete fuckin moron.. i knew they werent good people but i tried anyway cause they're fun to be with.
i really don't understand sometimes what my problem is... i hold on to all these people that just aren't good for me and make me feel fuckin miserable and the few people who have honestly and truly been good to me and are wonderful people to me.. i just end up fuckin over. its never intentional... i just honestly fuck up and i fuck up hardcore.
im sure there is some pyschoanalysis thats hidden here....that i push away people that are good to me cause of some self hatred thing... but then again... maybe im just a fuckin douchebag after all and im not the good person i thought i was.
all i know is im really fuckin sick of giving people second and third and fourth chances just to let them hurt me all over again.
im fuckin ramblin im sorry........ most of that came from fucked up events from this weekend but whatever....bottom line ...well... i dont know what the bottom line is, but im sure its not good