Burn no bridges 2 stay warm
Ok im sick of this bullshit, im sick of my crying, and most importantly im sick of pretending i dont love someone. I have to be honest and straight up right now i cant take this empty felling i cant stand the felling i have when no ones around and all i can do is cry and wish someone understood.....but really it should be so simple. For the last 10 months...no fuck that for the 3 years ive built my life around a girl even before she was mine i had my mind set that one day i would marry that girl....i mean from the first time i saw her i knew she was the one i just had that felling and if you dont understand what felling im talking about dont worry becuz one day youll get that exact same one...ive always loved this girl and i just cant quit.....id rather gutted wide open and bleed myself to death the be without her...so i got screwed but everyone makes mistakes...everyone even myself its just how god wanted it to be so that we could all remember were all equal and that no one is perfect. And i know for sure im not and i know for sure this girl that owns my heart isnt either but i cant just keep trying to put all the blame on her somewhere, something, somomne or whatever i know ive did wrong to.....but the one thing i know that i did right and did make with perfecting was loving somone whole heartedly and thats something that you just cant stop by snapping your fingers. Im in love....weither that is a good thing or not i dont care but i have to follow my heart even if everyone hates me 4 it....im in love and i made a promise to love her 4 the rest of my life and that exactly what i plan to do today...ive been a wreck all day and ive thought about it a million times and i really cant see myself with any one but....Holley. She my all, my world, my strength, my hope, my life...i simply am crazy about her and i always have been. Im sorry guys i cant just quit no matter what happened i really dont care im tired of caring about what everyone thanks...for now on im goona start thinking about whats best for me and not whats best for everyone else.....i love you all more than youll ever know trust me id die for each and everyone of you over and over if i had to prove it...your my friends and my friends are what im here for but i feel in love...i did what every man says he doesnt want and at the same time desires so madly...im in love....i know you might never understand but i hope that youll atleast try.,.,..and holland im glad were back together come home 2 me safely plz..i love u more than life itself kid.....sorry if you dont understand....watch wiker park or listen to dashboard or a little song called against all odds...maybe youll see then....well thats it i hope you u all understand and i esp. hope holley understands i love her so very much so.....well xoxoxo to all my love ones....happy break all...L8r dayz_Just an ordinary kid like you..