Dec 22, 2004 12:36
i just read blankets and it is the most amazing book. you all should seriously read it. i have the biggest crush on the author now. he is so honest and lovely. i just wrote him an email, but i failed to profess my love. i'm not a crazy psycho fan. i picked up carnet de voyage last night which he wrote too and i just finished it, while at work, and it reminded me a lot of when i was traveling alone through france and italy. while i was at the book store last night i realized that there are so many places i want to go, but i don't know where to go first. and i don't really have a ready and willing travel partner either. after that trip alone i've decided that it'd be best for me to travel with at least one person. i mean i'm totally self-sufficient when it comes to traveling, but it's so much more convenient and comforting to travel with someone else. especially if you don't speak the local language fluently. i realized on that trip that i began to talk to myself out loud way more than is permissible for a sane person. i think i did it because i missed hearing a voice i could understand. sure i would hear people talking all day, but i could just get bits and pieces. anyone who could speak a bit of english i would try to have a conversation with. maybe i just need to start learning more foreign (and not ancient) languages. i was seriously considering last night not buying a car and just saving my money to travel outside of the u.s. but with a car i can drive cross country and there are so many places that i want to see in the u.s. so maybe i'll have to stick to domestic travel plans for now. ben mentioned wanting to go to d.c. so maybe we can do that in the next couple of months. he said all the museums are free or something and that would be a fun trip to take by train. the older i get the more i realize that i have acquired lots of stuff, that while makes me able to live quite comfortably, i don't really need. initially i had wanted my family to take a trip for christmas in lieu of getting material possessions, but that didn't work out. maybe next year. and once i started thinking about stuff that i might want i thought of quite a list, but these are all things that i don't really need, but i guess it's ok to have some frivolous stuff. i just don't want to end up one of those people who is always trying to save money to buy something and avoids going out with friends and what not in order to buy material things. i've blown a ton of money on christmas and i intend on spending a bit more, but it's for people i love and when i buy stuff for other people i usually don't worry about the price tag. it's funny because when i buy stuff for myself i always shop around and buy used things and what not, but when i go christmas shopping or just shopping for other people i just buy something if i think they'll like it and the price isn't much of a consideration.
i talked to the boy last night and i feel better and i'm not crazy, but i also need to work on just being me and single and happy. and the currier service we use at work sent out holiday cards. it's the three of them riding their bikes down the street and it's the cutest card ever.