I'm done
i don't want to be engaged. i don't want to be in a relationship more serious than casual sex. its too hard. I can't seem to find the mid mark. either i'm too immature or I'm too grown up. Either their crazy or so sane they bore me. I'm self-conscious. I look for the bad in everything. Everything is suspicious. i make a crappy girlfriend. I'd make a crappy wife. no matter how hard i try i can't do right. i don't want to try it anymore because i'm never ok. i'm either too good or not good enough. screw this.