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im going to florida.im excited.a lot.<3 i miss jen.calin too. and even charles,and two other douchbags..even tho they are all jerks and i wouldnt tell them. haha.but anyways.
december 16-december 19 i'll be in Oregon.
december 19-january 3 i'll be in Florida.
i am very happy. i miss my family.esp my brother. gahh.this shall be good.
ironic that i use to have countdowns til i left florida..and now im super excited to go back?
halloween was..good. its so weird. i remembered exactly what i did and who i was with last halloween, even tho it was hella chill and no big deal...and its just strange..i cant believe a year has gone by since then. its so odd. it feels like 3 months.im in such a different place now.whatever.just weird.
so anyone who really knows me, knows that i have trust issues.big time.
and i cant help it. and part of me use to want to change it, and just make myself trust ppl...but not anymore, i dont trust people for a reason, they usually dont deserve it, and they ususally do something to make me reallly not trust them before ive even started to let down my guard, and if they can screw up before ive even started to trust them...then why even bother right...idk. w/e. the point is...it kinda sucks not trusting people because you always sorta think they are trying to pull one over on you..and thats not a good feeling..but i cant change it..even if i did want to.
i like someone. but everyone tells me not to trust him. conundrum? i think so. shitty? definitely. ugh.
CALIN IS (apparently) COMING TO VISIT DURNING THANKSGIVING BREAK! IM SO FREAKIN EXCITED..IT WILL BE RIDICULOUS. AHH.
december 16-december 19 i'll be in Oregon.
december 19-january 3 i'll be in Florida.
i am very happy. i miss my family.esp my brother. gahh.this shall be good.
ironic that i use to have countdowns til i left florida..and now im super excited to go back?
halloween was..good. its so weird. i remembered exactly what i did and who i was with last halloween, even tho it was hella chill and no big deal...and its just strange..i cant believe a year has gone by since then. its so odd. it feels like 3 months.im in such a different place now.whatever.just weird.
so anyone who really knows me, knows that i have trust issues.big time.
and i cant help it. and part of me use to want to change it, and just make myself trust ppl...but not anymore, i dont trust people for a reason, they usually dont deserve it, and they ususally do something to make me reallly not trust them before ive even started to let down my guard, and if they can screw up before ive even started to trust them...then why even bother right...idk. w/e. the point is...it kinda sucks not trusting people because you always sorta think they are trying to pull one over on you..and thats not a good feeling..but i cant change it..even if i did want to.
i like someone. but everyone tells me not to trust him. conundrum? i think so. shitty? definitely. ugh.
CALIN IS (apparently) COMING TO VISIT DURNING THANKSGIVING BREAK! IM SO FREAKIN EXCITED..IT WILL BE RIDICULOUS. AHH.