that's bullshit, alenaflaming_robotOctober 20 2004, 22:51:11 UTC
it's also funny how your 'friends' were there for you through so much of your bullshit and your lies about 'stopping' and 'getting help' when really you were just gonna bring yourself and everyone else even futher down with you. I'm really sorry that you think we're 'tired of caring'...but we are...and how could you expect it to be any other way? you obviously care about no one. but how can you care about anyone when you don't even care about yourself? it's pathetic. you used to be so different. and you used to care about yourself and your friends and other people. but now you just don't. and it's ridiculous. and all this 'drama' is because of you. and your need for unnecessary attention because of all your insecurities. and your lack of self control. unfortunately you go through phases where you say that you know what you're doing is stupid and wrong...and unfortunately you don't actually believe it yourself... and it's also unfortunate that we've all wasted so much time waiting for you to get better and you just keep making things worse with all your stupid lies. i'd also like to say that your real friends...you know...us...your 'friends', are the ones who try to help you out and tell you when youre fucking up...and those kids you meet from myspace who are all getting you into that fucked up scene and screwing themselves up too...those kids AREN'T your friends...those kids WON'T care about you in the long run... and you fucked yourself over with any of the real friends you had. and it sucks that you used to be such an amazing person...and now you're just this peice of flesh who doesn't even care. -Vanessa
Re: that's bullshit, alenaxpretty_n_pinkxOctober 25 2004, 10:53:51 UTC
Drama I'm causing? I haven't talked to you people in weeks... all you go from is hearsay. Good going. I checked my voicemail almost everyday even though my phone was turned off. No voicemails from you guys. Yeah, so much for trying to get hold of me. When you used to take 200mg of adderall everyday no one said you had a problem. Funny how you guys get drunk every weekend and occasionally get high, and no one says you have a problem. Yet, I tried a few things, tried something pretty scary and stayed away from it afterwards. Way to go. You don't know shit. I've been working my ass off, working 6-7days a week, busing it everywhere and all you do is tear me down at school in the hallways. You're such the better person. Like I said, since you say it's true, it obviously is. I care a lot. I've been doing so well the past week and a half, and I don't need to prove shit to you people. I'm so happy with Zak and the people that you assume are 'getting me into things'.... you don't know anything. Nor do you know how they live or what they do. Keep your mouth shut about things you don't know about. I'm on my own and I'm happy. ps don't write in my journal if you 'don't care' leave me alone, you're not a friend, you're just a dramacase.
I'm really sorry that you think we're 'tired of caring'...but we are...and how could you expect it to be any other way?
you obviously care about no one. but how can you care about anyone when you don't even care about yourself? it's pathetic.
you used to be so different. and you used to care about yourself and your friends and other people. but now you just don't. and it's ridiculous.
and all this 'drama' is because of you. and your need for unnecessary attention because of all your insecurities. and your lack of self control.
unfortunately you go through phases where you say that you know what you're doing is stupid and wrong...and unfortunately you don't actually believe it yourself...
and it's also unfortunate that we've all wasted so much time waiting for you to get better and you just keep making things worse with all your stupid lies.
i'd also like to say that your real friends...you know...us...your 'friends', are the ones who try to help you out and tell you when youre fucking up...and those kids you meet from myspace who are all getting you into that fucked up scene and screwing themselves up too...those kids AREN'T your friends...those kids WON'T care about you in the long run... and you fucked yourself over with any of the real friends you had.
and it sucks that you used to be such an amazing person...and now you're just this peice of flesh who doesn't even care.
-Vanessa
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When you used to take 200mg of adderall everyday no one said you had a problem. Funny how you guys get drunk every weekend and occasionally get high, and no one says you have a problem. Yet, I tried a few things, tried something pretty scary and stayed away from it afterwards. Way to go. You don't know shit. I've been working my ass off, working 6-7days a week, busing it everywhere and all you do is tear me down at school in the hallways. You're such the better person. Like I said, since you say it's true, it obviously is.
I care a lot. I've been doing so well the past week and a half, and I don't need to prove shit to you people.
I'm so happy with Zak and the people that you assume are 'getting me into things'.... you don't know anything. Nor do you know how they live or what they do. Keep your mouth shut about things you don't know about.
I'm on my own and I'm happy.
ps
don't write in my journal if you 'don't care'
leave me alone, you're not a friend, you're just a dramacase.
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