*But I'm not alone*
just listening to this song brings back the million reasons of why i loved mcfly in the first place.
at the moment, i do actually feel so alone. i have no bloody real friends anymore really. noone to care about me, noone to hug me, noone to go out with, noone to laugh with anymore.
gem has kim, rach has amy and her own friends, soph has debz and mark, rachel has her own friends who she's moving in with soon. i feel dead alone, and it's horrible. but hearing danny sing those words, it's just....comforting. in an odd sort of way. it doesn't take away that empty feeling i have though. this time last year, i was so happy. i had soph, and gem and james and everyone. and i spent most of the summer with soph and james, but now i hardly see either. when i am with soph, it's usually with debz and she never asks me to her house just to have a laugh and watch videos and stuff anymore. i don't understand what fucking changed.
yeah, i know people won't bother commenting to this but i needed to get it off my chest. argh, i just feel so fucking alone, it's unreal.
noone really bothers with me anymore. that's the main point i'm trying to make. yeah, people will talk to me, but they don't wanna be close with me. i miss having a best friend to spend time with and mess about with.
i don't understand what it is about me.
god, my head is so fucked up at the minute, i don't even know how to write what i'm feeling. i can't stop crying, and i know why but i can't explain it.
and another problem is guys. not to be bigheaded or anything, as most people will think i'm being, but i do get alot of guy attention when i'm out, and it was all well and good to begin with [as i never got any in my early teens] but now it's boring. i hate that guys just see me as a "fit bird" or whatever. do they not think i have feelings?
i want to be in fucking love to be honest. the song "tongue tied" by october fall, or "hey there delilah" by plain white t's sum up how i feel about love tbh. or see the film moulin rouge. argh.
im confusing myself actually, so i'll shut the fuck up so i don't kill yr friends pages. and just...sdflkfdjsgh. i hate everything so much.
and if anyone bothers patronising me ["awww don't worry, you'll find someone soon....you're only young....or "i know how you feel. it'll be alright" i'll just fucking blow up.
at the moment, i do actually feel so alone. i have no bloody real friends anymore really. noone to care about me, noone to hug me, noone to go out with, noone to laugh with anymore.
gem has kim, rach has amy and her own friends, soph has debz and mark, rachel has her own friends who she's moving in with soon. i feel dead alone, and it's horrible. but hearing danny sing those words, it's just....comforting. in an odd sort of way. it doesn't take away that empty feeling i have though. this time last year, i was so happy. i had soph, and gem and james and everyone. and i spent most of the summer with soph and james, but now i hardly see either. when i am with soph, it's usually with debz and she never asks me to her house just to have a laugh and watch videos and stuff anymore. i don't understand what fucking changed.
yeah, i know people won't bother commenting to this but i needed to get it off my chest. argh, i just feel so fucking alone, it's unreal.
noone really bothers with me anymore. that's the main point i'm trying to make. yeah, people will talk to me, but they don't wanna be close with me. i miss having a best friend to spend time with and mess about with.
i don't understand what it is about me.
god, my head is so fucked up at the minute, i don't even know how to write what i'm feeling. i can't stop crying, and i know why but i can't explain it.
and another problem is guys. not to be bigheaded or anything, as most people will think i'm being, but i do get alot of guy attention when i'm out, and it was all well and good to begin with [as i never got any in my early teens] but now it's boring. i hate that guys just see me as a "fit bird" or whatever. do they not think i have feelings?
i want to be in fucking love to be honest. the song "tongue tied" by october fall, or "hey there delilah" by plain white t's sum up how i feel about love tbh. or see the film moulin rouge. argh.
im confusing myself actually, so i'll shut the fuck up so i don't kill yr friends pages. and just...sdflkfdjsgh. i hate everything so much.
and if anyone bothers patronising me ["awww don't worry, you'll find someone soon....you're only young....or "i know how you feel. it'll be alright" i'll just fucking blow up.