I wont let go till it bleeds
Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
[Solo: Corey]
Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries
And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit
Today is the first day of my summer vacation, any normal person would be happy, but since I'm a social retard, I'm depressed and alone. I hate myself. My mother said I should get a job at Bertamini's, where I used to get my haircut. I thought why would I get a job, especially at a place like that, all the girls there are so so beautiful and I'm just not. I wish I was beautiful, but of course I'm not, I'm just the weird girl in the corner that no one wants to talk to. I only have one friend and I can't see her. My mother doesn't even care what I do anymore. I told her I was going in my room to cut myself and she said "Okay Aeriel, Bye, I have a job interview." I'm so tired of being ugly. I'm fat and I just wish I could know what it's like to be beautiful for just one day. I'll never know the feeling, I'm just a creep. Well I'm off to do something constructive or destructive with my time.
.Whoever says sunshine equals happiness.
..has N.E.V.E.R. danced in the rain..