This next one goes out to the Erie hardcore scene.
I've been really bored with hardcore lately. A lot of the new shit I've been hearing is just so boring and generic. Nothing has been getting me excited about hardcore and that's so upsetting. It's sad to think that I'm growing past all of this, but I mean come on! When xrepresentx gets signed to a label, you know hardcore is going downhill (again)...no offense, Colin. I'm also getting sick of all the kids at show now. There's all these 15 year old girls running around going to shows and barely even paying attention the music. I mean, it's good that they're there supporting the bands monetarily, but for fuck's sake, if you're only there to meet guys go to the fucking mall or something. I also dont like the new kids there dancing and acting like they've been around for years upon years. I think I'm getting bitter in my old age. Don't get me wrong, I love hardcore, but I'm starting to feel as though it was metaphorically my training wheels for life. It helped me meet some great people (although they were greatly outweighed by shitty people), helped me realize who I am, and helped me grow as a person, I feel as though it's time to take the training wheels off. I don't mean drop out of hardcore, but to stop acting like it's everything I have in life. I appreciate all hardcore has done for me and I'll still continue to be faithful to the music and the message, but I recently have just become so completely disheartened with my love for the "scene". Everyone has just gone off the deep end. I don't feel that togetherness anymore. I don't feel that sense of unity, like we're all there for the same reason, for the music. I want to feel that again. That feeling to me was one of the best feelings in the world. When it seemed that everyone in the erie scene was friends. Now I just feel as though everyone is enemies and it hurts. It really does. I feel so far outside of it now that I feel like I can never be back to where I was. I feel as though erie is so far gone that it can never get back to what it was. That depresses me. I don't even know what to do about it anymore. Should I give up? or should I just try to ignore what goes around me and just live for the music? I fear that some of the things that go on are just too hard to ignore.