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hey, well we have 2.5 days left. I cannot wait to get out. I need to get out. I have been a total emotional wreck. I don't know whats wrong with me. I think it might be stress, which will be lightened once we are out of school but it has to be something else.
I feel like everything is falling apart. I've made a bad grade on a test, i've been stressing over a project, i have a huge test in history that is freaking me out, and i have a test in math that i am sooooo not prepaired for. Not to mention our spanish test, which is relativly easy, it's just long, which stresses me out, no matter what subject it's in. At least we have a break in band, but everything is so crazy at school that i am freaked out once i get home, just like the rest of my family, and we are all moody and weird, and it's just driving me crazy.
Not to metion, i have been so cry babyish lately, i can't seem to stay in a good mood. It seems like everything sets me off, no matter whats going on. I'm just a mess, and it's getting to me. I am making stupid mistakes on stuff because i am freaked out and then i get more freaked out because i am messing up. It's just this endless cycle i can't seem to get out of.
Another thing that is freaking me out is our dance recital. We have like 4 weeks and we don't know it all. Granted we are better that the older girls, but i've been taking dance 2 years longer than they have. See this is the kinda thing that bothers me. Things that involve a group of people working togther just stress me out, because i really don't have any control over them, and if they practice, and know their parts. Then i start critizing myself, and trying to decided weather i know my parts and i get more stress out because I always think i could do better.
Well at least we are going to Pawley's island for a while. The beach should calm me down. I hate the beach in all honesty, the salt water and sand get on my nerves but it seems to calm me down if i sit on the walk and watch it. I don't think this trip will be as fun though. Grama and Daddy Ken won't be there and Aunt Sarah isn't bringing Lily and TJ. Not to mention Sandy is bring her boyfriend and maybe a friend for Samantha, which will make everything very odd and unconfortable. Oh well, neither Kat nor Kristen spend time in the room so I can at least have it to myself for the day. Thats about it for today, post more later.
Evangeline
I feel like everything is falling apart. I've made a bad grade on a test, i've been stressing over a project, i have a huge test in history that is freaking me out, and i have a test in math that i am sooooo not prepaired for. Not to mention our spanish test, which is relativly easy, it's just long, which stresses me out, no matter what subject it's in. At least we have a break in band, but everything is so crazy at school that i am freaked out once i get home, just like the rest of my family, and we are all moody and weird, and it's just driving me crazy.
Not to metion, i have been so cry babyish lately, i can't seem to stay in a good mood. It seems like everything sets me off, no matter whats going on. I'm just a mess, and it's getting to me. I am making stupid mistakes on stuff because i am freaked out and then i get more freaked out because i am messing up. It's just this endless cycle i can't seem to get out of.
Another thing that is freaking me out is our dance recital. We have like 4 weeks and we don't know it all. Granted we are better that the older girls, but i've been taking dance 2 years longer than they have. See this is the kinda thing that bothers me. Things that involve a group of people working togther just stress me out, because i really don't have any control over them, and if they practice, and know their parts. Then i start critizing myself, and trying to decided weather i know my parts and i get more stress out because I always think i could do better.
Well at least we are going to Pawley's island for a while. The beach should calm me down. I hate the beach in all honesty, the salt water and sand get on my nerves but it seems to calm me down if i sit on the walk and watch it. I don't think this trip will be as fun though. Grama and Daddy Ken won't be there and Aunt Sarah isn't bringing Lily and TJ. Not to mention Sandy is bring her boyfriend and maybe a friend for Samantha, which will make everything very odd and unconfortable. Oh well, neither Kat nor Kristen spend time in the room so I can at least have it to myself for the day. Thats about it for today, post more later.
Evangeline