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Boys
When 2004 came around I wasnt in the best of relationships... and I can happily say that a lot has changed since this past January. I have gotten out of a bad relationship and I have moved on. I dont want to put any names in here about the past year because I just dont think it would be right... Anyways. So I got out of that relationship and moved onto another one that I thought would be good for me.... ended up it was ok but not where I wanted to be... Got out of that relationship and was really confused about what I deserved. So I dated a bunch of different guys. Then school started. And Marching Band. Thats about all that I can say. I finally found a relationship where the guy I am with cares about me just as much as I care about him. He tells me all the time about how much he cares about me and how much I mean to him. And everyone that sees me with him tells me that he must make the biggest difference in my life becuase they have never seen me this happy with a guy. And that makes me feel great about the choices I have make in the past couple of months. All I have to say is I cant believe I have finally found this guy. No matter what happens I know I made the right choice to take him back.
Friends
All year I have had a big group of really close friends. Yeah I've lost friends along the way but I have also gained a lot of close friends and got closer to some that I never thought I would. Marching Band this summer had a lot to do with that. I came away from this season closer to some people (Danielle, Sam, April) that I never thought could happen. I also made a lot of new friends.... Larry, Paul Shade, Andrea Town, Christy Conrad, Nicki Rae, Kayla Frantz... and I am sure there are many more. That was the best experience I could have asked for. A lot of my friends have helped me through a lot in the past year. I truly dont know where I would be without them. I didnt have the best start in January... I wasnt the happiest person... and now to look at me you cant tell that. Which makes me very happy because the people I care most about, my friends, have helped me turn my life around.
Family
I've had a lot happen in my family... I dont really know where to start.... After me ending up in the hospital just a couple days into 2004 it was a big shock to my whole family. I guess you could kind of say that I found out who truly cares about me and what I actually mean to the people in my family. That was only a little part of it though. This year has been a big 'growing' year for us. And I am happier now with my family than I was last year... Last year I couldnt stand the fact that I lived with them. Now we are getting closer and dealing with things more openly... yeah I guess thats the right word. So I guess its been a good year for our family... Sure we had some hard times to get here but its been worth it.
School
I've changed a lot about the way that I look at school. At the start of this year I was in the middle of 8th grade and school wasnt high on my list of important things in my life... But a lot has changed and I am actually taking school seriously. I am going to try and keep my grades up and do good this year just so I can show my mom that I can live up to what she wants me to be... I just want her to be proud of me and school is a big thing to her because she does believe that I can do well in school... So thats just that.....
So I guess looking back on the past year it hasnt been to bad.... Ive made a lot of changes in my life that I am happy with. And I know that I am going in the right direction with my life... Its been a long time since I have been happy and I love the feeling.... So tonight when the ball drops and the clock strikes mid-night.... The year is gone and its the start of a new one... Thats what I am looking forward to... Starting a new year... new memories and a lot of new choices to make....
I just wanna say thanks to all of you who have stuck by my side the past year and who have been there through everything... I dont know where I would be without you....
Amy