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i feel like bawling. i have all this anger and i dont know what you would call it built up inside of me. tonight i feel so unwanted and left alone. i just want to crawl into a corner and die. i have no idea why. i just dont feel like me tonight. i hate this feeling and i want it to go away. i know i sound like some physco person but its just how it is. and i dont want it. i want it all to leave. all these feelings of sadness hatred lonelyness disappointment. i dont know where it all came from but its just invaded my life. ive just been sittin around all night like i have no point in this world. i need to escape from it all. i wish it wasnt so cold out so that i could go for a walk and just be by myself so i can think about things. i dont even know what i would think about. just stuff. sorry for all you people who are reading this. i know it sounds like a bunch of bull shit but i need to vent. i feel like im in a box and i cant go anywhere. i want to talk to someone, anyone, about all this but i dont know who and i dont know how i could let it all go. its like i want to talk but nothing can come out. im in my own little world tonight and i want to leave. i hate being in my world. i want to be with someone who cares and i want someone to tell me everything will be ok. i just want to wake up and see that me feeling this way isnt real. i feel alone and misunderstood. i dont know why though. nothing bad has happened to me and i dont think i have done anything wrong in the past couple days. i need to escape and get away...
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