tomorrow night is semi....
i am excited for tomorrow night to come... i've tried on my dress a million times and i can't believe it... my mom keeps telling me how pretty i am going to be... but i dunno... and i really don't care because she is excited to see me all dressed up tomorrow night and i am just happy to see her excited about something that means a lot to me... i just hope its a good night... i don't understand why my father drinks... he is ruining the bond that he used to have with me and sometimes i look at him and ask myself why i care... yeah its because hes my father but i don't know why i care so much about how i live up to how he wants me to be and why i try so hard to make him happy just to hear him tell me i can do better... i don't even know if he will be around tomorrow night to see me all dressed up... last year for snowball he saw me for two minutes while he was walking out the door and all he said was i looked nice... i told my mom tonight that i'm done trying to fix the father daughter relationship that i had with him... i told her that i am tired of seeing him this way and i don't see a reason for him acting the way he does... i guess it all comes down to tomorrow night... i'm interested in seeing what he has to say... i dunno maybe he will be to drunk to care...
amy
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