And now I just feel so bleh. This post is chucked filled with random ramblings which make no sense.
If there's one aspect of me that annoys people, it'll probably be my laziness. xD;;
I've been doing nothing much recently except randomly surfing around sites while I wait for classes to start. That's okay, but I realized I haven't done ample studying like I did when I was back in my home country. Is it really the change in environment and their attitudes towards stuffs and uni itself that has changed my study habits as well?
I remember I just used to work so goddamn hard. Maybe because it was a pressing two years during IB...
And now I just feel so bleh. This is the first time I've been so damn lazy at doing anything at all, maybe because it's also my first time doing so many things. I actually had my PIN for my card accidentally locked because I didn't manage to enter it correctly 3 times, despite my remembering of my PIN very well. For some reason, I must've been totally out of the world to have myself entering the wrong PIN 3 times in a row. I have NO idea what was wrong with me, and until today, I still cannot figure out why I even did that.
And that happened to me about a month ago. And it took me this long to actually really get down there to the bank, which is right across the uni to settle that issue. Why is it that I just can't get myself to get things working when I really should?
Is it really my lack of motivation to carry things out? I catch myself asking this many times over, due to my lack of real goals in life. You know, no real aspirations to do something solid in life. I sometimes find life meaningless in some sense because we're all gonna die in the end anyway...
Even now as I speak, I suddenly have no idea what I'm doing in the UK. I suddenly have no idea why the hell I'm even taking Japanese as a degree. I'm just wondering if it's me who has always been just dreaming after silly, impossible things like working in the seiyuu industry or working in Japan itself that has driven me to do things like that, when I can be all practical about studies and perhaps worked towards getting an Economics degree or something financially beneficial.
Personal interest VS financial benefits always just goddamn clashes itself. In this material world, it's obvious which is the better pick in order to survive. Yet at the same time you can't just betray your heart and do something completely opposite, something you never wanted to do. I don't know which is worse - suffering later and reaping benefits now, or suffering now and reaping benefits later.
Ah, great, I forced this upon all of you. Sorry, my rants are technically the worst ever because they have no coherency whatsoever, and they tend to jumble up, so...
Oh, and look, the fridge. They shifted that support-thingy down, so my space is now smaller. How nice.
But, the kitchen is clean now, I guess I can't complain...?
......Anyway, as usual, I'm on the IRC chat, #junjoulivefeed so just do the same thing and go to mibbit.com. Choose "IRCHighWay [webirc]" and you can just join me in chatting. That chat, for now, just functions as a means to chat with all you guys, and will once again be a JR livefeed summary of the next chapter when it rolls by.
I've been doing nothing much recently except randomly surfing around sites while I wait for classes to start. That's okay, but I realized I haven't done ample studying like I did when I was back in my home country. Is it really the change in environment and their attitudes towards stuffs and uni itself that has changed my study habits as well?
I remember I just used to work so goddamn hard. Maybe because it was a pressing two years during IB...
And now I just feel so bleh. This is the first time I've been so damn lazy at doing anything at all, maybe because it's also my first time doing so many things. I actually had my PIN for my card accidentally locked because I didn't manage to enter it correctly 3 times, despite my remembering of my PIN very well. For some reason, I must've been totally out of the world to have myself entering the wrong PIN 3 times in a row. I have NO idea what was wrong with me, and until today, I still cannot figure out why I even did that.
And that happened to me about a month ago. And it took me this long to actually really get down there to the bank, which is right across the uni to settle that issue. Why is it that I just can't get myself to get things working when I really should?
Is it really my lack of motivation to carry things out? I catch myself asking this many times over, due to my lack of real goals in life. You know, no real aspirations to do something solid in life. I sometimes find life meaningless in some sense because we're all gonna die in the end anyway...
Even now as I speak, I suddenly have no idea what I'm doing in the UK. I suddenly have no idea why the hell I'm even taking Japanese as a degree. I'm just wondering if it's me who has always been just dreaming after silly, impossible things like working in the seiyuu industry or working in Japan itself that has driven me to do things like that, when I can be all practical about studies and perhaps worked towards getting an Economics degree or something financially beneficial.
Personal interest VS financial benefits always just goddamn clashes itself. In this material world, it's obvious which is the better pick in order to survive. Yet at the same time you can't just betray your heart and do something completely opposite, something you never wanted to do. I don't know which is worse - suffering later and reaping benefits now, or suffering now and reaping benefits later.
Ah, great, I forced this upon all of you. Sorry, my rants are technically the worst ever because they have no coherency whatsoever, and they tend to jumble up, so...
Oh, and look, the fridge. They shifted that support-thingy down, so my space is now smaller. How nice.
But, the kitchen is clean now, I guess I can't complain...?
......Anyway, as usual, I'm on the IRC chat, #junjoulivefeed so just do the same thing and go to mibbit.com. Choose "IRCHighWay [webirc]" and you can just join me in chatting. That chat, for now, just functions as a means to chat with all you guys, and will once again be a JR livefeed summary of the next chapter when it rolls by.