"...but it's a great escape...it's not sane"
Well once again I sit here with insomnia. It's okay, I've grown accostome to it now. About maybe an hour ago Lindsey called me and said he was going to find his way over here to see me. I told him my two things for tonight; I'm not drinking and I'm not leaving since he's been drinking. I think I'm becoming more and more appreciative of my life. As I look back on the past couple of weeks I've once again made another transition into maturity, and quite honestly I'm happier now than I've ever been in my life. Quite nice to actually look back and be happy with the way things are turning out in my life.
I just really hope that Lindsey is the real thing and not something fake. Either way if he is or isn't it's going to be a waste of his time if all he wants is sex. I'm so beyond that now that I don't even have to worry about is he just going to use me or not. I know I'm not going to let anything sexual happen unless it means something to me and the other person instead of just casual shit.
Now that I'm pretty much back into the boy meter I've realized how much happier I can be when it's just me. Although I'm not complaining on how it feels to be with someone I know that love will happen eventually and when it does I'll be ready and prepared for anything that comes my way.
I've had a awesome summer so far and I thought in order to be happy I had to be in love. Love is when I can look in the mirror and still see a beautiful strong maturing woman. It's so much better than not being able to recognize myself. (where I use to be in my life)
Well I'm done rambling now
Merry part and merry meet again
I just really hope that Lindsey is the real thing and not something fake. Either way if he is or isn't it's going to be a waste of his time if all he wants is sex. I'm so beyond that now that I don't even have to worry about is he just going to use me or not. I know I'm not going to let anything sexual happen unless it means something to me and the other person instead of just casual shit.
Now that I'm pretty much back into the boy meter I've realized how much happier I can be when it's just me. Although I'm not complaining on how it feels to be with someone I know that love will happen eventually and when it does I'll be ready and prepared for anything that comes my way.
I've had a awesome summer so far and I thought in order to be happy I had to be in love. Love is when I can look in the mirror and still see a beautiful strong maturing woman. It's so much better than not being able to recognize myself. (where I use to be in my life)
Well I'm done rambling now
Merry part and merry meet again