Umm....kay?
Lately I am just getting so angry with people who act so incredibly DUMB!
Some people!! (I will refrain from saying their names, to protect the rights of the dumb)
There is a girl who has been dancing for like 4 years. She's good, yeah.
But, she has no right to judge other people by what parts they get, how they dance, etc.
Just not enough experience to back anything up!
And she gets on this pedestal, all high and mighty, and talks down to everyone that's NOT a cheerleader, and NOT a blonde and NOT this and not that.
It just wears me out.
I thought I was SO OVER all this teenage drama stuff.
I guess I'm not though?
And a couple of weeks ago, my friend was over (spending the night) and we were majorly on a sugar high and just goofing around.
Well, this guy *Ben* is talking to me and everything is normal.
My friend seems to think it'd be super funny to "confess my love to him" and, being the sugar high child that I was, I went along with it.
He started telling me how he has always felt that way about me and he was so glad I felt the same way for him.
Only.. The truth is.. I didn't.
I felt awful because I have no right to get someone's hopes up or whatever.
I wanted to tell him I was kidding, but I guess I was already too far gone.
SO this goes on for a couple weeks and I'm REALLY trying to back out of it.
But, unfortunately, I start falling for *ben*.
A couple words come into mind. "Let's get Retarded"
That's definitely what I got.
THEN.. *BEN* starts to act like a horny lil' perv and that is SUCH a turnoff.
So I decided I could do much, much better and kindof pushed him away.
To make a long story even longer, he "falls in love" with YET ANOTHER girl.
Now, since I kindof swore him off, this didn't affect me.
Although On Sunday when I was in the hospital, I DID talk to my mom about what a lamer this kid is.
And she's like "Maybe he should get some help" :D
SO I guess that was the end of my troubles.
BUT OH NO!
Not for me! Not ever!
I decide to be a super-immature brat and call him a dick! *gasp*
and this new *model* girlfriend!! (Who happens to live in Las Vegas and can't get a guy in real life?) I called HER a skank.
I can't believe her. Really, I can't.
I can't even believe MYSELF! A skank?
Who the heck am I?
****BLEEEEEEEP!**** BEGIN CREAM PUFF ENTRY NOW ****BLEEEEEEEP!****
Anyway, I added that little tid-bit in there to let you all know that, NO, I am not mature.
Yes, I do have faults, MANY OF THEM.
I AM, afterall, only 16. I think I have a right to be as immature as I want, while I can.
People expect too much of me and my maturity level. We feel kindof shunned and dejected.
But really, I feel like an awful person for being so vindictive and spiteful.
I want to be a better person.
Not for anyone else, but for me.
I mean, of course it'd benefit others, because then I might not be such a raging bumblebee.
I think in a way, ben and model and dancer girl are making me into the person that I want to be?
It's odd, because I can actually feel remorse!
*pinches self*
And no, I'm not dreaming.
I've just realized that like all my life I was so cold and unfeeling and really hateful.
And of course, I would have wanted to blame it on my parents, my sister, my brother, friends, position of the moon, WHATEVER.
But really, it's all my fault.
I had this gigantamaHUGE wall of ice built up all around me. Never letting anyone in.
Now, if it was ice CREAM, it wouldn't have been such a bad thing.
But in this case, it was pure, unadulterated ICE!
Like the kind in the north pole!
Anyway, I think it's basically melted now.
I feel like a.. a... something really nice that wants to be really nice to everything else.
It will take a while, but hopefully my past transgressions can be forgotten and I can just go on to live a good life with good friends.
****BLEEEEEEEP!**** END CREAM PUFF ENTRY NOW ****BLEEEEEEEP!****
Okay, so I feel kindof worn out after that.
Haha.
Whew. Maybe I should only be nice in little spurts.
Being nice 24/7 might wear me thin in the long run.
So, my senior pals have left school.
I miss them and love them and I will probably see them in a couple of days.
They are all just so big! *tear* They grow up so fast.
In just a couple of days I am going back to school to do finals and then...
WABAMKAFOWMACHIZZLE!
I'm gone.
JUST LIKE THE SENIORS! YOWWWZA!
I'm going to miss school super much.
But this summer, I've got PLANS people. BIG PLANS.
Number one, I am going to long beach to buy a couple worn out longboards.
(They make really fun coffee tables AND headboards)
How Suzy-homemaker of me!
Then, I am teaching my stepdad to surf.
That's right folks, I am attempting the impossible.
*laughs*
He's got good balance....
For a blonde.
Oh, whoops! I mean guy!
I'm pretty sure I had more plans than just two, but I think I need a burrrrrrLITO!
That'll clear my mind and help me concentrate on this HUGE LOAD OF HOMEWORK!
Yowza, I'm so excited to delve into THIS.
Oh and as a sidenote, but a very VERY IMPORTANT side note*
Everyone Join Oohlala!
http://www.livejournal.com/community/__oohlala
If you make it, I'll give you a kiss!
Or a handshake!
It's fun stuff. Gives you a sense of inner peace and.. well..
makes you feel pretty inside.
hehe.
Ruben, you have to remember to adopt me purdy soon! We can't be golfing maniacs without the adoption papers!
Catch you humblebugs on the FLIP SIIIIDE!
*cute dimples*
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Some people!! (I will refrain from saying their names, to protect the rights of the dumb)
There is a girl who has been dancing for like 4 years. She's good, yeah.
But, she has no right to judge other people by what parts they get, how they dance, etc.
Just not enough experience to back anything up!
And she gets on this pedestal, all high and mighty, and talks down to everyone that's NOT a cheerleader, and NOT a blonde and NOT this and not that.
It just wears me out.
I thought I was SO OVER all this teenage drama stuff.
I guess I'm not though?
And a couple of weeks ago, my friend was over (spending the night) and we were majorly on a sugar high and just goofing around.
Well, this guy *Ben* is talking to me and everything is normal.
My friend seems to think it'd be super funny to "confess my love to him" and, being the sugar high child that I was, I went along with it.
He started telling me how he has always felt that way about me and he was so glad I felt the same way for him.
Only.. The truth is.. I didn't.
I felt awful because I have no right to get someone's hopes up or whatever.
I wanted to tell him I was kidding, but I guess I was already too far gone.
SO this goes on for a couple weeks and I'm REALLY trying to back out of it.
But, unfortunately, I start falling for *ben*.
A couple words come into mind. "Let's get Retarded"
That's definitely what I got.
THEN.. *BEN* starts to act like a horny lil' perv and that is SUCH a turnoff.
So I decided I could do much, much better and kindof pushed him away.
To make a long story even longer, he "falls in love" with YET ANOTHER girl.
Now, since I kindof swore him off, this didn't affect me.
Although On Sunday when I was in the hospital, I DID talk to my mom about what a lamer this kid is.
And she's like "Maybe he should get some help" :D
SO I guess that was the end of my troubles.
BUT OH NO!
Not for me! Not ever!
I decide to be a super-immature brat and call him a dick! *gasp*
and this new *model* girlfriend!! (Who happens to live in Las Vegas and can't get a guy in real life?) I called HER a skank.
I can't believe her. Really, I can't.
I can't even believe MYSELF! A skank?
Who the heck am I?
****BLEEEEEEEP!**** BEGIN CREAM PUFF ENTRY NOW ****BLEEEEEEEP!****
Anyway, I added that little tid-bit in there to let you all know that, NO, I am not mature.
Yes, I do have faults, MANY OF THEM.
I AM, afterall, only 16. I think I have a right to be as immature as I want, while I can.
People expect too much of me and my maturity level. We feel kindof shunned and dejected.
But really, I feel like an awful person for being so vindictive and spiteful.
I want to be a better person.
Not for anyone else, but for me.
I mean, of course it'd benefit others, because then I might not be such a raging bumblebee.
I think in a way, ben and model and dancer girl are making me into the person that I want to be?
It's odd, because I can actually feel remorse!
*pinches self*
And no, I'm not dreaming.
I've just realized that like all my life I was so cold and unfeeling and really hateful.
And of course, I would have wanted to blame it on my parents, my sister, my brother, friends, position of the moon, WHATEVER.
But really, it's all my fault.
I had this gigantamaHUGE wall of ice built up all around me. Never letting anyone in.
Now, if it was ice CREAM, it wouldn't have been such a bad thing.
But in this case, it was pure, unadulterated ICE!
Like the kind in the north pole!
Anyway, I think it's basically melted now.
I feel like a.. a... something really nice that wants to be really nice to everything else.
It will take a while, but hopefully my past transgressions can be forgotten and I can just go on to live a good life with good friends.
****BLEEEEEEEP!**** END CREAM PUFF ENTRY NOW ****BLEEEEEEEP!****
Okay, so I feel kindof worn out after that.
Haha.
Whew. Maybe I should only be nice in little spurts.
Being nice 24/7 might wear me thin in the long run.
So, my senior pals have left school.
I miss them and love them and I will probably see them in a couple of days.
They are all just so big! *tear* They grow up so fast.
In just a couple of days I am going back to school to do finals and then...
WABAMKAFOWMACHIZZLE!
I'm gone.
JUST LIKE THE SENIORS! YOWWWZA!
I'm going to miss school super much.
But this summer, I've got PLANS people. BIG PLANS.
Number one, I am going to long beach to buy a couple worn out longboards.
(They make really fun coffee tables AND headboards)
How Suzy-homemaker of me!
Then, I am teaching my stepdad to surf.
That's right folks, I am attempting the impossible.
*laughs*
He's got good balance....
For a blonde.
Oh, whoops! I mean guy!
I'm pretty sure I had more plans than just two, but I think I need a burrrrrrLITO!
That'll clear my mind and help me concentrate on this HUGE LOAD OF HOMEWORK!
Yowza, I'm so excited to delve into THIS.
Oh and as a sidenote, but a very VERY IMPORTANT side note*
Everyone Join Oohlala!
http://www.livejournal.com/community/__oohlala
If you make it, I'll give you a kiss!
Or a handshake!
It's fun stuff. Gives you a sense of inner peace and.. well..
makes you feel pretty inside.
hehe.
Ruben, you have to remember to adopt me purdy soon! We can't be golfing maniacs without the adoption papers!
Catch you humblebugs on the FLIP SIIIIDE!
*cute dimples*
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