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okay i dont even know where to start....
first of all...winter formal night was suposed to be the best! its our senior year!!! no one expected this to happen...
paul,
first of all i dont really kno where im going with this but i just had to get some things out. you were an AWESOME guy let me tell you!! so nice always. and you could also make me laugh when i was sad :(. i remember all of our inside jokes :(:(:(:( *BULGE* *BLUE HAIR* *THE SIGNS* and when i think about you right now i remmeber your bright yellow shirt that you wore like 3 DAYS AGO!! and how it was blinding me. and all i want right now is to be able to see you in that shirt again. and i remember your dorky laugh and how it just made me laugh even more. and id do anything to hear it again. last nite in the sherrif station i kept hearing you say my name. but i kne it was in my head :( i just cant believe your really gone and if you were here right now i would just want to say that i love you as a friend paul and i will never forget you and you have changed my life in so many ways. and this morning down at the station i just wanted to admit something and i think i speak for all of us when i say this but we were being selfish paul. we just wanted to all go home becuz we were sad. and we didnt want to be there. but what we werent thinking about was the fact that we were trying to help find the guy who did this to you paul. and i am so sorry for anytime i complained last nite. about being cold. hungry. tired. anything!! im sooo sorry!!! and i miss you so much!!! and just remmeber you will be in my heart forever paul and in many others too. we alll love you very very much!!!
goodbye.
love always and forever, Jill
paul did not deserve this im sorry but this is so FUCKED UP i cant believe it. this is not happeneing. im gonna go to school on monday and hes gonna be there!!! i feel like he is. but i kno hes not! :(:(
also i cant even imagine what anna and pauls parents are going through right now!
i mean my very last entry before this one was ABOUT me hanging out with PAUL and the next one after it is bout him dieing!! i cant believe it! i just hope that we can all get through this. and i know we will. and we all have to be strong for paul. thats what he would want.
first of all...winter formal night was suposed to be the best! its our senior year!!! no one expected this to happen...
paul,
first of all i dont really kno where im going with this but i just had to get some things out. you were an AWESOME guy let me tell you!! so nice always. and you could also make me laugh when i was sad :(. i remember all of our inside jokes :(:(:(:( *BULGE* *BLUE HAIR* *THE SIGNS* and when i think about you right now i remmeber your bright yellow shirt that you wore like 3 DAYS AGO!! and how it was blinding me. and all i want right now is to be able to see you in that shirt again. and i remember your dorky laugh and how it just made me laugh even more. and id do anything to hear it again. last nite in the sherrif station i kept hearing you say my name. but i kne it was in my head :( i just cant believe your really gone and if you were here right now i would just want to say that i love you as a friend paul and i will never forget you and you have changed my life in so many ways. and this morning down at the station i just wanted to admit something and i think i speak for all of us when i say this but we were being selfish paul. we just wanted to all go home becuz we were sad. and we didnt want to be there. but what we werent thinking about was the fact that we were trying to help find the guy who did this to you paul. and i am so sorry for anytime i complained last nite. about being cold. hungry. tired. anything!! im sooo sorry!!! and i miss you so much!!! and just remmeber you will be in my heart forever paul and in many others too. we alll love you very very much!!!
goodbye.
love always and forever, Jill
paul did not deserve this im sorry but this is so FUCKED UP i cant believe it. this is not happeneing. im gonna go to school on monday and hes gonna be there!!! i feel like he is. but i kno hes not! :(:(
also i cant even imagine what anna and pauls parents are going through right now!
i mean my very last entry before this one was ABOUT me hanging out with PAUL and the next one after it is bout him dieing!! i cant believe it! i just hope that we can all get through this. and i know we will. and we all have to be strong for paul. thats what he would want.