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We are leaving for the airport in about an hour and a half.
My mom really should keep some things for herself. If she doesn't get it, it doesn't mean she's right and I'm wrong. Just because something feels good for me it doesn't have to feel good for her and vice versa.
Blah.
She's giving away mixed signals. First she says that she wants me to get job after I finish my studies and in the same breath claims that it'd be so good for me to pick up another study after I finish this one.
No, thank you very much.
I feel like she's kinda trying to make up for holding me back when I wanted to do something completely different and she's not really succeeding. That's past, just leave it there. I'm over it.
Right now this may not be something that makes me completely happy, but I'll do something out of it. As always. I'm not sure if she noticed or not but I always do something out of it. I will make something out of my life and somehow right now I don't want her to play a big role when it comes to my decisions.
I guess it's easier for her with my brother cause his future is way more certain than mine. He'll get a job, I on the other hand, have no idea. She suggested today to get a certificate and become an interpreter in Bruselss. No, thank you. If I really wanted that, I'd pick a different course. Meh. Then she just smiles and says that I never know where my life's headed.
Well sure I don't know where I am headed but at least I know what I'd like to do and I'd very much like to stay in the educational field. Not as a teacher, but as a counselor. THere are numerous jobs you can do like that and I want something like that.
I just don't get her. She could simply be happy for me instead of doubting if I am going to pass my exams or not. Or if I go to classes this week or not. Or what am I going to do with my relationship. Or how much money this travelling back and forth is going to cost.
Just because she did things in a very traditional way, it doesn't mean I'll follow her steps.
Meh I should be jumping with joy but I am only feeling disappointed with the way she sees things and for not having a bit more support with my ideas, with just accepting my ideas and not trying to change them.
My mom really should keep some things for herself. If she doesn't get it, it doesn't mean she's right and I'm wrong. Just because something feels good for me it doesn't have to feel good for her and vice versa.
Blah.
She's giving away mixed signals. First she says that she wants me to get job after I finish my studies and in the same breath claims that it'd be so good for me to pick up another study after I finish this one.
No, thank you very much.
I feel like she's kinda trying to make up for holding me back when I wanted to do something completely different and she's not really succeeding. That's past, just leave it there. I'm over it.
Right now this may not be something that makes me completely happy, but I'll do something out of it. As always. I'm not sure if she noticed or not but I always do something out of it. I will make something out of my life and somehow right now I don't want her to play a big role when it comes to my decisions.
I guess it's easier for her with my brother cause his future is way more certain than mine. He'll get a job, I on the other hand, have no idea. She suggested today to get a certificate and become an interpreter in Bruselss. No, thank you. If I really wanted that, I'd pick a different course. Meh. Then she just smiles and says that I never know where my life's headed.
Well sure I don't know where I am headed but at least I know what I'd like to do and I'd very much like to stay in the educational field. Not as a teacher, but as a counselor. THere are numerous jobs you can do like that and I want something like that.
I just don't get her. She could simply be happy for me instead of doubting if I am going to pass my exams or not. Or if I go to classes this week or not. Or what am I going to do with my relationship. Or how much money this travelling back and forth is going to cost.
Just because she did things in a very traditional way, it doesn't mean I'll follow her steps.
Meh I should be jumping with joy but I am only feeling disappointed with the way she sees things and for not having a bit more support with my ideas, with just accepting my ideas and not trying to change them.