this is it.
i don't know. i guess the setback is that i'm going to come out of this relationship with a skeptical outlook on trust. i don't understand how i was fooled so easily and for so long. i really am smarter than this situation makes me look. from now on, trust will be earned instead of just given away. ok and you can say "i love you" 20 kajillion times and it will still mean nothing unless you have genuine feelings to back that up, and i guess neither of us did coz if he did, he wouldnta left, and if i did, i wouldnta let him leave. but.. oh well, what can you do. i'm moving forward with my life & i'm not taking you with me. goodbye.